splash.on.my.face

no matter how much we try not to cock up the show, sometimes, it just doesnt work for us.
for all my perfectionistic, analytical, and scrutinising ways, i certainly didnt see whatever that had happened in the morning coming.
yes.
i am flawed, still.
there are still chinks and loose screws here and there in my being.
at the end of the day, i am fallible.

yeah. it takes a few tears, an aching heart and a mighty one hella scare for me to realise that.
problem is, would you be patient enough with me?

the call that u gave me just before my cultured exam told me that you would, and for that im thankful. really really am.

the relief was indescribable, and yet i kept on thinking, what if you had just given up on me.
if not then, what if in the future?
yeah. the future is wide and unknown, hidden from our eyes.
but something inside tells me that you would, always be patient with my idiotic ways.

and i cant promise you i wont cock up the show again, coz i noe im not one who learn mistakes easily, or at least, not do a mistake with a similar nature again.
coz i know myself better, i think, and im not one who is NOT ever to repeat the same mistake again.
im not that perfect of a person to make that kind of promise.

maybe its just me, maybe thats how the real khairi works; he'd think that he's always right, then, not able to take in the anger, he'd just shoot whatever that comes from within his mouth. yeah. some of u reading may just be smirking rite now, coz a couple of close ones haf experienced the effects and after-effects of my fcuked up laserness,

but he never... never... ever mean to hurt. especially those that he really loves.
so please, do bear myself on this point.

and yeah. i can only offer you my apology. what else can i offer? the deed has already been done.
i can only ask that you be patient with me, and not take this as the end of the world, coz its not.
both of us being mad at each other doesnt mean the love between us is lesser.

i know. it would be hard for you to just put this behind us, by the look on yr face when we met briefly in the train just now.

and like all other wounds ive created, time will heal them.
only time will...

"Nothing can separate us. Nothing."
yeah. nothing would...
i love you Nur.
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