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its only inevitable that sooner or later, at some points of our ever mundane lives, we will face some sort of a rut in the head.
thats when God decides to play around with our moldable beings, and test us, to see how far we will go to overcome it.

and irritatingly, it comes in cycles, and more annoyingly still, it comes right after we haf achieved a certain high.
think orgasms.
the low after the high. (hmm. i see u squirming now.)

playdo-ish, if u like.
but really, the way we are are only defined by what we surround ourselves us with.
but, what if, the problem lies in your head.
no. not physical pain.
but rather, think emotional trauma and the like.
so what do u do?

nah. much as how the action in itself is appealing, we cant juz shoot ourselves in the head.
no pain no gain?
nah. ull only gain that one way ticket to hell.
on budget, no less.
(yes. i haf some religious beliefs stuck in me still. haha.)

so to overcome it, i suggest a remedy, that is free (i see eyes giving off that shiny glint), yet simple and portable enuf.
shut yrself off.
dont think too much.
go with the flow.
dun entertain the devil's advocates floating by yr halo.
instead, do things u wont normally do.
like, if ure bitchy by nature, or if u think u r, then tone down a bit. and try to look at things from an alternative perspective.
and vice versa, if ure quite an ignorant self-absorbed dumbass, go read. start with somethin simple. go pick up a copy of the newspaper.
kesimpulannya, do things u wont expect your " normal" selves to do.

you will notice the change would be refreshing enough.
and god-willing, ull get that drive and verve to continue living life again.

stop trying to be normal.
go LIVE.
oh yeah. while im at it, stop depending on others, or worse still, paying them (like some pimp here, or trashy mags that tells u on how to live life).
it numbs yr intellect and yr capacity to be autonomous.
if u noe what i mean, u can start by being critical of what u read or hear, including this entry. haha

:)

oh yeah.
im missing my Puspawangi. badly.
urgh.
ok. now imma go back to my shell.