. waiting for love at causeway.pt .
yes. u got it wrong again.if you think that im targetting at you.yes.its YOU.
:)
oh. and stop proclaiming that youre the real deal.
what?
no?
you dont believe me?
well. ignorance is indeed bliss.
the world's a stage, with us, being merely actors in it, or so, as the popular saying goes.
actors/actresses.
yes. you. the one who think u shud be on screen, who haf no idea on how to act, u CAN indeed act.
in fact. ure doing it rite now.
everytime.
unless, someone like me, asks u to stop acting, and then what?
ull then think, that the most laid-back and chilled u, is being yrself, but really, thats just a state of yr shallow spongy minds.
bah.
in fact, ud be lost without the script.
ud dunno how to act.
ull be juz like that ape or primate next door to you.
ud think that yr opinion counts. and that its a great deal, but hey, who are u to validfy yrself.
really. are you what u make out to be?
your worth is as much as that grain of sand going thru that hourglass, to be honest.
ouch. it hurts doesnt it.
nothing is real. might as well u kill yrself.
hmm. but then, perhaps, during that time, ure only getting yrself reborn. so, its one hella empty cycle for u once again.
or perhaps, finally awake after a long slumber.
u can never be sure now can u?
;)
juz kill yrself will ya. this life is just a waste of time.
and if ure wondering, im the self-professed rising angel who has tails growing from his arse.
and im gonna make hell, heaven.
oh. and ya. dont give me that spiritual thingy.
whatever you believe or see as god, stays as that.
just a belief.
*winks*
tears.underneath.the.smile
PnP at Boat Quay beneath the romantic poetry that is being written,
a tragic prose was ended abruptly.
a case of too little, too late?
or even perhaps, an intended divine sleight of hand by Him
cruel?
i dont think so.
fated, or meant to be? definitely.
acceptance is the only route.
although my heart still bleeds.
till the next time we meet, of coz.
but whether the sentiments of the hearts remain the same, ill leave it all up to Him, and of coz, yourself.
nevertheless, im contented.
as promised, ill be giving my all in this, and there is no turning back.
;)
Pus, you have my word.
@>/--
a.brother.engaged
a brother of mine, Azly, got engaged today, and i am ultra excited for him.
perhaps too excited to specify exactly what is inside the ever-fluid bag of mixed emotions contained in my head.
throughout the whole time, the very euphoria of being there for his engagement was almost enough for me to shed tears.
only almost, becoz, mcm tak manly la kan if i were to tersedu-sedu kat sane. heheh. and khairi kalau dia nangis, buruk habis.
yes. that excited/happy.
im happy that he has finally gotten things ready and on the roll, in terms of having his boo around and his career taking off.
coz its only a while back, during the last time i met him at that coffeeshop, the 3 of us, were mengadu-ing nasib (huh? "mengadu-ing nasib") with each other. and he was the one feeling worst of all amongst us.
but now tho, im happy. happy is an understatement or, under-word.
seeing him by itself is somehow enough.
yeah. perhaps i missed him.
pics were taken, and hopefully, i get to post them up here soon enough.
anyway old hoos, im glad ure doing fine now.
all the best with your fiancee, and ill certainly be waiting for the invitation to jamah that nasi minyak. heheh.
though the chances of u reading this entry is very very very slim, if not impossible,
juz wanna say,
i love you bro.
...
after the majlis, i met my sayang.
:)
even though it was brief, it was enough to make me over the moon.
actually kan, im always over the moon, juz to be in her presence.
i love you Pus!~ *blush*
"And I will never try
To deny that you are my whole life
'Cause if you ever let me go
I would die so I won't run
I don't need another woman
I just need you or nothing
'Cause if I got that
Then I'll be straight
Baby you're the best part of my day" - an excerpt of With You by Chris Brown
perhaps too excited to specify exactly what is inside the ever-fluid bag of mixed emotions contained in my head.
throughout the whole time, the very euphoria of being there for his engagement was almost enough for me to shed tears.
only almost, becoz, mcm tak manly la kan if i were to tersedu-sedu kat sane. heheh. and khairi kalau dia nangis, buruk habis.
yes. that excited/happy.
im happy that he has finally gotten things ready and on the roll, in terms of having his boo around and his career taking off.
coz its only a while back, during the last time i met him at that coffeeshop, the 3 of us, were mengadu-ing nasib (huh? "mengadu-ing nasib") with each other. and he was the one feeling worst of all amongst us.
but now tho, im happy. happy is an understatement or, under-word.
seeing him by itself is somehow enough.
yeah. perhaps i missed him.
pics were taken, and hopefully, i get to post them up here soon enough.
anyway old hoos, im glad ure doing fine now.
all the best with your fiancee, and ill certainly be waiting for the invitation to jamah that nasi minyak. heheh.
though the chances of u reading this entry is very very very slim, if not impossible,
juz wanna say,
i love you bro.
...
after the majlis, i met my sayang.
:)
even though it was brief, it was enough to make me over the moon.
actually kan, im always over the moon, juz to be in her presence.
i love you Pus!~ *blush*
"And I will never try
To deny that you are my whole life
'Cause if you ever let me go
I would die so I won't run
I don't need another woman
I just need you or nothing
'Cause if I got that
Then I'll be straight
Baby you're the best part of my day" - an excerpt of With You by Chris Brown
end.less
23012008/0105
at times like these, i wonder why we are even made.
its all nothing but a test.
but why is the test even necessary in the first place?
im expecting the answer to be so complex and beyond the comprehension of a human brain.
...
everythin is a gamble.
whether u lose, or u gain,
ull only find out for sure
in the end.
end.
...
ka-aceh-aa-ee-erre-ee (Khairi)
at times like these, i wonder why we are even made.
its all nothing but a test.
but why is the test even necessary in the first place?
im expecting the answer to be so complex and beyond the comprehension of a human brain.
...
everythin is a gamble.
whether u lose, or u gain,
ull only find out for sure
in the end.
end.
...
ka-aceh-aa-ee-erre-ee (Khairi)
brown.slumber
Pic taken while waiting to surprise a friend of Pus on Sunday.Yes. It was that mendak.
Haiz. Anak siape la tu~
:P
and yeah. im beginning to feel sick. urgh.
waiting for HS202 lecture.
:P
and yeah. im beginning to feel sick. urgh.
waiting for HS202 lecture.
spanish.dblcheeseburger.boatquay
Wednesday.160108
the day that two malay guys were suckered into parting with a substantial amount of money, juz so to learn spanish.
an investment, i should say.
buying the book means, i should try to take up the harder levels, if i find that im doing okay.
but ive decided to write only in pencil. (so that i have the option of reselling it)
who knows when my fickle mind decides to let loose.
but most prolly not, looking at how much im enjoying the lessons so far, and upon knowing that spanish is the third most widely spoken language in the world.
i dont know about you, but it sounds sexy to me. ;)
i met my love on this beautiful day too.
while waiting for her by the side of the road, i took out my mobile and belted out all the jiwang2 songs, especially the indon ones. to myself only, of coz.
and before i knew it, she stood there, in black and white, smiling like an angel that she is.
and i was on cloud nine.
today was a day i did lotsa travelling, be it thru mrt, or by walking.
and i also got to send a message across to this mamat cheers. haha. wanted to do more, but she said, tak baik. oh well.
the walk, from tanjong pagar mrt to the port (oh how i missed that place) was indeed worth it.
i soaked in the whole atmosphere by myself, with my double cheeseburger and my nokia jukebox, and of coz, its never complete without those sampoernas.
the breeze was just nice.
too bad i dont haf the gang nor her for company right then.
ive only myself, and during the time i was there, i was at peace.
what.greeted.me
and i reminisced, and let my mind wander, or juz did whatever anyone will do if theyre at boat quay, juz to chill, alone.
before i knew it, its time to walk back to tanjong pagar, but not before i got another double cheeseburger, for my Pus, of coz.
asian.civilisation.museum
fullerton
an observation. while walking to boat quay from tanjong pagar, i took about 25 minutes. but, walking back to meet her, i took 15 minutes.
her imaginative theory on why this is so greatly differed from mine.
for me, i was reluctant to leave her, and i was eager to meet later, thus, the different timings. heheh.
the wait was unbearable. really. almost going crazy. heheh. almost. but, not really. whichever. :P
it would have been complete if we had candlelights, but i guess then was alrite. :)
during the ride home, i did something bad, which though i cant promise ill not do it again, i shall minimise the chances of it ever happening again.
thank god, the day was ended off on a very good note.
black.white.reflection
the day that two malay guys were suckered into parting with a substantial amount of money, juz so to learn spanish.
an investment, i should say.
buying the book means, i should try to take up the harder levels, if i find that im doing okay.
but ive decided to write only in pencil. (so that i have the option of reselling it)
who knows when my fickle mind decides to let loose.
but most prolly not, looking at how much im enjoying the lessons so far, and upon knowing that spanish is the third most widely spoken language in the world.
i dont know about you, but it sounds sexy to me. ;)
i met my love on this beautiful day too.
while waiting for her by the side of the road, i took out my mobile and belted out all the jiwang2 songs, especially the indon ones. to myself only, of coz.
and before i knew it, she stood there, in black and white, smiling like an angel that she is.
and i was on cloud nine.
today was a day i did lotsa travelling, be it thru mrt, or by walking.
and i also got to send a message across to this mamat cheers. haha. wanted to do more, but she said, tak baik. oh well.
the walk, from tanjong pagar mrt to the port (oh how i missed that place) was indeed worth it.
i soaked in the whole atmosphere by myself, with my double cheeseburger and my nokia jukebox, and of coz, its never complete without those sampoernas.
the breeze was just nice.
too bad i dont haf the gang nor her for company right then.
ive only myself, and during the time i was there, i was at peace.
what.greeted.mebefore i knew it, its time to walk back to tanjong pagar, but not before i got another double cheeseburger, for my Pus, of coz.
asian.civilisation.museum
fullertonher imaginative theory on why this is so greatly differed from mine.
for me, i was reluctant to leave her, and i was eager to meet later, thus, the different timings. heheh.
the wait was unbearable. really. almost going crazy. heheh. almost. but, not really. whichever. :P
it would have been complete if we had candlelights, but i guess then was alrite. :)
during the ride home, i did something bad, which though i cant promise ill not do it again, i shall minimise the chances of it ever happening again.
thank god, the day was ended off on a very good note.
black.white.reflectioni.love.you
:)
:)
sweet.dreams
- its real love that you dont know about.
- id say, bullocks to u, if any of u claim that u noe more than the average joe.
- never be too sure, never let your mind be closed.
- change - its the only constant.
the emotional high that i derive from all these is indeed there.
of course, i cant say for sure what comes next, can i?
everything is in His hands.
but that doesnt mean i cant work towards it.
failure or not, it doesnt matter.
at least, id go on knowing that ive tried and didnt succumb to being a wimp, and letting my insecurities get hold of me.
you can see it in many different angles.
but remember, not necessarily your angle is right.
the angle that u choose ultimately depends on yr own irrational ego and blind pride.
which sometimes i can find to be a tad too much.
why am i not telling it to your face?
simple.
because i cant be bothered.
;)
...
Sweet dreams are made of this
Who am I to disagree?
Travel the world and the seven seas
Everybody's looking for something
Some of them want to use you
Some of them want to get used by you
Some of them want to abuse you
Some of them want to be abused
left.or.right
"in communication, it's not just the words that count, it is also
WHAT IS IN YOUR HEAD."
WHAT IS IN YOUR HEAD."
"we choose what to notice."
excerpts/extracts on what i saw during a lecture. Mastering Communication.
...
there is an issue which has been bugging me since last week.
but, i cant put the words describing it, or exactly what.
all i noe is, i dont feel right. oh no. not at all.
i can choose to ignore it, and be nonchalant, (which i have a right to, of coz, and also of the fact that i know absolutely, i am not the cause of it)
or i can choose to pursue it and settle it amicably, or, sign off with a proper closure, whichever way it would be bring. be it negative, or positive.
oh. if i am how i was like last time, definitely, i would be the emotional wreck, and a big hoo-haa would defintely ensue.
but im not.
and looking at the calm surface, or rather cold quietness of things, the chances of me reacting the way im expected to, would be rather slim.
in other words, its not up to me, by right.
id go with the flow, since whatever has happened, is beyond me. not in terms of comprehendibility, but rather, in terms of consequentiality.
whatever happens, good or bad, ill take it like a man, and walk towards the sunset, with no regrets.
to put it simply, i shall no longer put any much more thought into this.
"cognitive schemata" -
stereotypes : predictive generalisations about something or someone,
(be it through social influence, or personal pre-emptive thoughts)
love.birds
she.and.meim happy.
and perhaps, that is all that matters now.
i cant see the future, most definitely.
but i can work towards it though.
and nity, thanks for that enlightening pep talk on the mrt.
it certainly did wonders.
:)
and perhaps, that is all that matters now.
i cant see the future, most definitely.
but i can work towards it though.
and nity, thanks for that enlightening pep talk on the mrt.
it certainly did wonders.
:)
Puspawangi.and.Me!~
Puspawangi & Papa Jahat (:P)the date yesterday turned out to be oh so fine.
even with the initial jittery nervousy feelings of meeting the parents. ...
i am legend tukar jadi alien vs predator 2.
which i wont recommend to anybody.
...
*fluttery buttery cotton candy feeling floating by*
...
and oh yeah.
i skipped my very first lecture for the semester today.
coz thats the only 1 hr freakin lesson i haf, (theres no tutorial) and thus theres no point.
*evil grin*
...
one thing more.
im really glad.
she, she and she seem to be moving on quite well.
my guilt is no more. :)
...
oh yeah. one more. ok2. last2.
"mother-fcukers".
a good euphemistic substitute for it (which i overheard from a bald but cool indian gentleman)would have to be...
"mother-humpers". heheheh.
enjoy yr monday folks, or whatever that is left out of it.
...
and a happy new year.
*yest nite (or was it yesterday's yesterday) a babe from 7-11 still wished me a happy new year*
:P
@>/--
pierced.right.through
No doubt, it was a tiring affair, but im duly satisfied.
At Sentosa, while we were having the Island Rush, i came up with something from the sands of Palawan Beach.
Haloed Heart Pierced by an Arrow.
for a certain Puspawangi.
heheh
i cant wait for school to start.
2008...
juz bring it!!!~
(not exactly the summary of 2007 which i predicted would come next. urgh. whatever.)
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