You believe that there is one true God and that it's your duty to submit to his will. Life may be trying, unfair, or painful here on earth. But you're waiting for the Paradise in the afterlife.
Religion is the most important thing in your life, and you are fully devoted to God. You are willing to fast, pray often, and follow all of God's rules to make sure you have a place in heaven.
pic taken and editted by nur's lesbo bestie fren aidah. :)
so its 0200. i was just done chatting with my sayang. and really, its been a long while since we had a long chat with each other at night. it was almost like one of the1st few days that we were getting to noe each other. heheh.
theres juz this special feeling brewing in me right now. which i dun normally get at other times, especially by what we shared on the phone just now. tonight im especially happy, hearing that she's so hyper, and us sounding so alive and well for each other, even though inside i knew both of us were totally exhausted by the tolls that we went thru earlier in the day.
she blogged abt my habit of sending her random smses, and yeah, it left me so the happy. haha. entah eh. bukan nak riak atau bangga ke ape ah, but i do it juz so to cool down the wanting feeling of missing her, especially when we do not get to meet at days in a stretch.
and the conversation only reaffirmed the faith that we haf in our relationship, and only reminded me still, not that i forget of coz, of why im still with her, and why she is still with me. for that one, i shall keep it juz between the two of us.
a lil bit of narrative update. life for me has been smooth. though a lil bumpy and with a bit of tightening the belt. my 1st starbucks pay would only come after the 7th of september. and hopefully, it would ease up a bit of my reliance on my parents, which as an adult, im quite ashamed to be still heavily dependent on them.
school's been smooth, and so far so good. im only taking 5 subjects; 4 soci modules, and a linguistic module. though only 5, i intend to put in more effort in my studies this sem, and admittedly, my last semester was too much of a leisure stroll. and now that im working, id haf to prove to myself, and my loved ones that i can indeed balance up my schedule to accomodate all that.
oh yeah, im proud to say that ive started to learn to play squash, thanks to my beloved bros in ntu ( u noe who u are). and also, proudly i say that im relatively decent in it, considering that it was my 1st time playing. i haf to brush up on the rules though. so now its "ON!", every thursday is fitness and squash day, with our dear OCifer supervising our training. dah dah. lu jgn kembang.
unfortunately though, having a new professional commitment on top of my academic pursuit means i haf to sacrifice some other things, and ive decided to forego my nominations to be involved in ntums as either the business manager or the marketing manager. honestly, i would love to take up the challenge and the position, and the experience that i would gather would be priceless and useful for my future positions, but alas, im not confident i can live up to the best of expectations of i were to take them up, especially when i may put my work on top of it. but perhaps, i may still help with ntums every now and then, if time permits it.
last but not least, here's a video of a malay song Kau Ilhamku, roughly meaning, You're my Inspiration.
and here are the lyrics, and the translated meaning by me. (as close as possible la kan)
Man Bai - Kau Ilhamku
Beribu bintang di langit kini menghilang (A thousand stars in the sky haf now disappeared,) Meraba aku dalam kelam (Caressing me in the darkness of the night) Rembulan mengambang kini makin suram (The shine of the moon dims) Pudar ilhamku tanpa arah (Dimming also my inspiration directionless)
Sedetik wajahmu muncul dalam diam (An image of your face appeared unknowingly) Ada kerdipan ada sinar (There's a twinkle, there's a shine) Itukah bintang ataupun rembulan (Is that a star or the moon?) Terima kasih ku ucapkan (Thank you I say)
Izinkanku mencuri bayangan wajahmu (Permit me to steal the image of your face) Izinkanku mencuri khayalan denganmu (Permit me to steal a moment of a dream with you)
Maafkanlah oh… (Forgive me...) Andailah lagu ini mengganggu ruangan hidupmu (If this song disturbs your peace) Kau senyumlah oh… (Do smile) Sekadar memori kita di arena ini (Just for our memories in this arena) Kau ilhamku… kau ilhamku… (Youre my inspiration x2)
*haiz. i think i dissected it bad for the translation. :( anyways, heres the vid. for those who know, id rather stick to the true essence of meaning the original malay version offers.
and yeah. you do noe to whom i would sing this song to. ;)
its hard to keep an open and receptive mind when u're working, especially as when u realise that u tend to work better with the ones that u can click naturally with ease.
the art of maintaining your cool, of course, is a challenge in itself, while your ego is constantly battered and beaten to a pulp.
well, what is work without its troubles?
the last few days had been quite a revelation, with the random attacks of restlessness and reminiscing of the past.
the rush of time was head-numbing at times, and with school opening, and the start of working at my store proper coinciding together, its pretty much a great challenge.
there were welcoming momentary reprieves, especially by Nur's presence.
and yesterday, i managed to catch the national day's fireworks with her, accompanied by her brother.
in the cold comfort of a ten storey office juz in front of the parliament house. the view was clear but it was unfortunately dampened perhaps by the lingering rain, which made the smoke harder to dissipate.
uh. nvm. yang penting, dapat watch the fireworks with my sayang.
we had a stroll, against the tide of people heading towards the mrt stations, and even walked along the esplanade line.
i couldnt help reminiscing the past when it was just the 3 of us. me, azly, afiq.
where we would ronda2 around the area, checking out the chicks, and juz chilling.
no. we werent like the majority of juveniles making a mess out of the place, and making fools out of themselves. we were cool, in all senses, and i daresay, we definitely made heads turn with our silent charm.
the night ended when i had to go down at khatib, but not before planting a kiss on her forehead which was on my shoulder.
:)
yes. some good times had passed me, and perhaps, may never come back. and now, im looking forward to the best times of my life with her by my side.
pic taken and editted by nur's lesbo bestie fren aidah. :)