splash.on.my.face

no matter how much we try not to cock up the show, sometimes, it just doesnt work for us.
for all my perfectionistic, analytical, and scrutinising ways, i certainly didnt see whatever that had happened in the morning coming.
yes.
i am flawed, still.
there are still chinks and loose screws here and there in my being.
at the end of the day, i am fallible.

yeah. it takes a few tears, an aching heart and a mighty one hella scare for me to realise that.
problem is, would you be patient enough with me?

the call that u gave me just before my cultured exam told me that you would, and for that im thankful. really really am.

the relief was indescribable, and yet i kept on thinking, what if you had just given up on me.
if not then, what if in the future?
yeah. the future is wide and unknown, hidden from our eyes.
but something inside tells me that you would, always be patient with my idiotic ways.

and i cant promise you i wont cock up the show again, coz i noe im not one who learn mistakes easily, or at least, not do a mistake with a similar nature again.
coz i know myself better, i think, and im not one who is NOT ever to repeat the same mistake again.
im not that perfect of a person to make that kind of promise.

maybe its just me, maybe thats how the real khairi works; he'd think that he's always right, then, not able to take in the anger, he'd just shoot whatever that comes from within his mouth. yeah. some of u reading may just be smirking rite now, coz a couple of close ones haf experienced the effects and after-effects of my fcuked up laserness,

but he never... never... ever mean to hurt. especially those that he really loves.
so please, do bear myself on this point.

and yeah. i can only offer you my apology. what else can i offer? the deed has already been done.
i can only ask that you be patient with me, and not take this as the end of the world, coz its not.
both of us being mad at each other doesnt mean the love between us is lesser.

i know. it would be hard for you to just put this behind us, by the look on yr face when we met briefly in the train just now.

and like all other wounds ive created, time will heal them.
only time will...

"Nothing can separate us. Nothing."
yeah. nothing would...
i love you Nur.
@>/--

fire.power

You are intense, internally driven, and passionate.
Your emotions are unpredictable - and they often get the better of you.
Both radiant and terrifying, people are drawn to you.
At your most powerful, you feel like the world belongs to you.
Why you would be a good superhero: You are obsessive enough to give it your all
Your biggest problem as a superhero: Your moodiness would make it difficult to control your powers
What Should Your Superpower Be?

hmm. and i told her id love to have invisibility powers.
goes to show, what we want, doesnt necessarily be in line with what we would be.
not that ill have a fire superpower of course.
but really, being invisible, also allows me, to transcend my boundaries.
i would be able to travel without any passport.
board on any plane or ship without being detected.
jumper-wise, juz a bit slower.
but still, u can do things without consequences.
only then, would be u be able to indulge in the tourist tradition.
only backfall would be, u only haf yrself to rely on. no frens, no one ud be sure of trusting.
hmm. but wait.
we do haf only ourselves to rely on.

hmm.

smiling.moon

"Sing your way home
at the close of the day...
Sing your way home,
drive the shadows away.
Smile every mile
For wherever you roam
It will brighten your road,
It will lighten your load,
If you sing your way home."

life's  a joke.
laugh it off and everythin will be okay.
"haha"

today, the full moon is on.
stare at it.
let yr mind wander.
allow yr tribal senses to grow.

:)

so what's love?
hm. entah.
am i feeling it?
id like to believe so. ;)

comfort.hurts

comfort hurts.

the irony of it is quite obvious.
still, what gives me the right to even say it as ironic?
just because the two concepts cant go in line with one another?

looking beyond the surface,
it hurts when the inertia within us decides to stay put and conquer.
thus, affecting our sense of mobility and movement when it comes to maneuvering between sets of actions or thoughts.
change disorientates us.
especially when we are already in a spot that gives us the orgasmic euphoria.

hmm.
orgasms?
theyre temporary.
after that, its juz falling into a black hole, and u wondered, "why did i even bother?"

so yeah.

im going nowhere in this i noe.
same like me, ure pretty helpless and directionless too.
in the end, we end up turning to dust.

http://anakmelayu.com/blogs/blog.php?id=90753

:)

oh yeah.
its already 4 months ey?
and yeah.
the honeymoon period is still on, and will forever be. Amin.
@>/--

Us

lifted.high

Us on the chairlift at sentosa. 6th April 2008.
:)
i dont like heights. but i dun necessarily am scared of it. *bluek*
...
the night before, for the first time ever, the geng met up with my Puspawangi.
everything seemed to be okay. if everyone else was nervous, then me? tak nervous? heheh.
looking forward to our first proper outing ever.
bowling anyone???
...
hmm. dah khairi. jgn berangan banyak sangat.
exams dah dekat tu!
*bleargh*
...
I love you, my beloved Geng! heheh
.
I love you Nur. :)
@>/--

full.view.of.pic

intelli.faith

PH cakap on 01.04.08:

intelligence is not fixed.
its ever moldable, and can be always be improved upon.
geniuses are never born. theyre always geniuses thru sheer hardwork and humility.
reason why some prodigies go down the drain?
theyre more concerned with looking intelligent rather than being one.
faith is also moldable.
good today, does not necessarily mean good tommorrow. :)

...
on Sufiah Yusof.
May the light shine on herand the worst of us, including myself.
...

oh yeah.
its Rushdy's birthday.
hmm.
fools are we all not?
but i guess the cake was worth it. :)

gosh.
the moment she stepped out of the building, a whole lotta wave of ecstacy just swamped upon my being.
the smile.
the all-manja smile.
man.
:)

...

i love you Nur.
many2.
heheheh.