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... broken ...
that post.
tt bit abt "revolve".
it is in the past tense.
...
i want u to stay.
please do not walk away.
...
for i can only ask...
tt bit abt "revolve".
it is in the past tense.
...
i want u to stay.
please do not walk away.
...
for i can only ask...
friday.nonchalance
finally. its friday.
the week was fast enuf for me, unexpectedly.
maybe the effect of having a very tite budget, and nothin to look forward to in the weekend. haha
this evening, ill haf an "interview" with a south korean family.
on the line is a five weeks tuition stint.
insyallah, other than to earn some extra bucks, itll open up new doors of contacts of potential tuition clients for my uni days.
ill be tutoring in English. just English.
all the best Khairi.
the week was fast enuf for me, unexpectedly.
maybe the effect of having a very tite budget, and nothin to look forward to in the weekend. haha
this evening, ill haf an "interview" with a south korean family.
on the line is a five weeks tuition stint.
insyallah, other than to earn some extra bucks, itll open up new doors of contacts of potential tuition clients for my uni days.
ill be tutoring in English. just English.
all the best Khairi.
lighted.sparkle
"...
Ku mengerti perpisahan ini
Bukan kerana kau membenci
Tapi kasih yang pernah ku beri
Tiada lagi bersama
Sering kala aku terlihatkan mu
Impian nan indah tersulam bahagia
Ku harungi hari demi hari
Bersama wajah tak mungkin akan kembali
Tapi hati masih tak terima
Ditinggalkan sengsara
Keraguan ini bukanlah padamu
Perasaan hati masih rindu
Kekalutan ini hanyalah untukku
Tercari-cari bayanganmu
Tak sanggup aku kehilangan
Kehilanganmu
Masih tercari-cari
Keraguan ini bukanlah padamu
Masih tercari-cari bayanganmu
Tak sanggup aku kehilanganmu
..."
i can feel it.
the verge of distance.
separation.
yes. it was no more like before.
sure as hell, doz times are over, or at least, gonna be soon.
doz times.
short, yet fulfilling enuf.
like a lighted sparkle. it gets shorter and shorter, burning with an unadulterated fashion and a the same time, bringin light to my world.
i also realise soon, tt ill haf to keep the fire burning within me by myself.
yet i cant deny this emptiness which is engulfing me.
anguish is nearing. yes. i can surely feel it alrite. tts sumthin i cannot deny, and sumthin i cant run away from.
tears aint enuf to make ppl stay. so on my part, ill just let my heart shed its own tears silently. i dun haf to show it. ill do my best not to show it. i promise.
was it me? or was it just... things?
whatever it is, please know tt i do really love you. still. and ever will. and will always include u in my prayers to Him. coz it is u, tt made me go back to Him, and for that ill always be thankful.
Yours Truly,
Muse
Ku mengerti perpisahan ini
Bukan kerana kau membenci
Tapi kasih yang pernah ku beri
Tiada lagi bersama
Sering kala aku terlihatkan mu
Impian nan indah tersulam bahagia
Ku harungi hari demi hari
Bersama wajah tak mungkin akan kembali
Tapi hati masih tak terima
Ditinggalkan sengsara
Keraguan ini bukanlah padamu
Perasaan hati masih rindu
Kekalutan ini hanyalah untukku
Tercari-cari bayanganmu
Tak sanggup aku kehilangan
Kehilanganmu
Masih tercari-cari
Keraguan ini bukanlah padamu
Masih tercari-cari bayanganmu
Tak sanggup aku kehilanganmu
..."
i can feel it.
the verge of distance.
separation.
yes. it was no more like before.
sure as hell, doz times are over, or at least, gonna be soon.
doz times.
short, yet fulfilling enuf.
like a lighted sparkle. it gets shorter and shorter, burning with an unadulterated fashion and a the same time, bringin light to my world.
i also realise soon, tt ill haf to keep the fire burning within me by myself.
yet i cant deny this emptiness which is engulfing me.
anguish is nearing. yes. i can surely feel it alrite. tts sumthin i cannot deny, and sumthin i cant run away from.
tears aint enuf to make ppl stay. so on my part, ill just let my heart shed its own tears silently. i dun haf to show it. ill do my best not to show it. i promise.
was it me? or was it just... things?
whatever it is, please know tt i do really love you. still. and ever will. and will always include u in my prayers to Him. coz it is u, tt made me go back to Him, and for that ill always be thankful.
Yours Truly,
Muse
150607-160607-170607
friday nite - sunday (150607-160607-170607)
short.brief.summries.
150607
afiq rented car.
picked up everybody by 12am.
supper at JB singgahselalu.
almost got lost before tt.
totally wicked meal. and tt tomyam? isit? mind-blowing.
no where to go.
seletar dam it is.
all the way to abt 515. sent everyone home.
settled down at 630am.
tiring. but somehow couldnt sleep.
160607
woke up to the sound of my phone ringing out gasolina.
afiq waking me up.
tot its 830. but found out its 1030.
kedebak kedebuk, picked up sisyah by 1145, i think.
jam all over sg. knn~
went to harbourfront. to pick up tt oven we recced the thursday before.
picked up the rest. and off to dja's.
aisyah surprised her at her blk. she even "found" the oven. haha.
as expected. her tears flowed.
pastu... pastu... decided to go to her hse for a while. for solat zuhur. and unexpectedly, for lunch too, (we had spaghetti) and also i had a congkak match wit umi. first game, drew with her. then second game, lost to her big time.
not bad for someone who's last congkak game was in JC, which was like 2 years ago. aah, *reminiscing the crappy, yet fun MCS days. hahaha*
after pics-tsking, decided to go to pasir ris park. found the place to be still wet.
yet, tt didnt deter us from playin a bit of volleyball and soccer on tt pitch. wit tt inflatable disney ball. had lotsa laughs. especially when we all fell, includin me skali. uuh. and perhaps i tink i got too carried away when i accidentally tackled aisyah. sowie. sowie berlowie lowie.
worked up a bit of sweat too. even tho the weather is not tt hot. *duh, it juz finished raining!*
oh yes. my ma made noise regardin my time of arrival in the hotel.
after tt brief time at the park, off we went to masjid hajjah fatimah for our maghrib.
pastu, off we went to bowling alley.
and there, i had a very very very very very... and on and on... bad game.
in contrast with the rest. who were all improving like mad, especially aisyah, who actually beat our shifu.
congrats to her. and i would be lying if i said im not jealous. but hey, still happy wit the overall performance wit the whole gang tho.
and now i must play catch-up. big time!~
oh yeah. nite elf and gang were there too.
after the bowling thingy, went off to send off dja and umi home.
after tt, jb it was.
my apologies to the rest if i my bad mood after the game had affected the rest. hopefully not. urgh.
durin the ride, me contemplating whether i shud juz take a cab from city sq to the zone. where my family is. but they decided to send me. after a bit of wrong turns and a bit of forced memory-recollecting, thank god we reached there.
and tts they end of my day wit the geng.
got the card and settled down in the room. all by myself. shud haf asked my kuz to tag along. but forgot to call him up. after tt extra-long hot shower, settled down on the bed, flipping channels.
havent had dinner. and thus, looked thru the in-room dining menu.
potpourri chicken chop it is. or is it? *my memory fast failing me*
finished tt in 30 mins. taking, and savouring the moment. out of ten, id give it a 7. uh, since when does khairi noe how to rate food anyway? food is juz food. oh well, someone will surely ask if she reads this.
i think i slept at abt 4plus2, with my hp blastin our music to my ears.
...
170607
again, woke up to the sound of my phone ringing.
my ma. asking me, if i want to come down and join the rest. my sisters in the pool.
left side of me says, alah, takpayalah, gi tdo je.
the right side says, haiz khairi. ure here, coz u want to spend more time wit the family, so juz go ahead. ok. then, quick warm shower and then im downstairs.
so juz chilled by the pool there, observing the antics of my sisters, my parents, and also the ppl ard.
and yeah. there was this sweet-looking malay girl. taking care of her small brothers by the side of the pool. she actually smiled at me. uuh, if only my parents aint there. i would haf done my thang. oh well. exchanges of smiles is enuf i think.
pastu, after all had dried up and showered, gi breakfast buffet. and feasted we did.
checked out at 12.
off to larkin. where my mom went to see the tailor. at same time, got my own measurements. and the tailor can still say,"wah, uve grown bigger, wat happened to u? makan ape?" nang bo ti nang. she was the tailor tt made my raya suit when i was in bmt. urgh. bingit. tapi takleh bingit kat sape2. dirie sendirie nie aje~
and on our way to angsana. proposed to my mom perhaps we can play bowling there, but after recceing the place and realised tt the waiting list is too long, and tt there were too many ppl there, i shelved it.
while my parents gi shopping groceries, i took the time to study these grp of abang2 main bowling. and played they did. im as impressed as hell. and i studied them worth two hours in all. juz stood there and watched them.
there was this abang in pink, a bit soft, but his bowling skills, blow me away. left-hander by the way. hooker.
then this boy ard my age. right hander. hooker. but he plays ball in a way tt it hooks on the left side. and there i was mesmerised. perhaps ill play tt way one day, juz for the heck of it. and yes. almost every turn, he strikes it all.
then theres this old pakcik. white hair all over. rite hander. neither spinner not hooker. he plays the simple straight ball. simple, yet fatal. accurate to the max. aimed every time at the pocket. and most of the time he stikes it. and he also doesn not miss the spares. totally impressed.
last not least, the conventional right hander hooker. seems tt he can get the ball in any position he wants. and he hooks it in this slent manner. none of the noise one makes when he throws the ball. and he was the one i studied the most.
along the way. there was mother and daughter beside this grp of abg2. both hookers. mom played with flair. and daughter, well, shud i say more, jambuuU~ haha. both damn equally good too.
after watchin two games, joined my family for lunch at kenny rogers.
they made a hoohaa coz they couldnt contact me. coz my phone somehow couldnt recieve the malaysian network. oh well.
ride to the 2nd link.
and home sweet home.
then, continue my sleep.
...
190607/1702
worte this all while at work.
and perhaps later ill be goin to a fren's party at sentosa.
perhaps.
if im not tired enuf.
the.end.
short.brief.summries.
150607
afiq rented car.
picked up everybody by 12am.
supper at JB singgahselalu.
almost got lost before tt.
totally wicked meal. and tt tomyam? isit? mind-blowing.
no where to go.
seletar dam it is.
all the way to abt 515. sent everyone home.
settled down at 630am.
tiring. but somehow couldnt sleep.
160607
woke up to the sound of my phone ringing out gasolina.
afiq waking me up.
tot its 830. but found out its 1030.
kedebak kedebuk, picked up sisyah by 1145, i think.
jam all over sg. knn~
went to harbourfront. to pick up tt oven we recced the thursday before.
picked up the rest. and off to dja's.
aisyah surprised her at her blk. she even "found" the oven. haha.
as expected. her tears flowed.
pastu... pastu... decided to go to her hse for a while. for solat zuhur. and unexpectedly, for lunch too, (we had spaghetti) and also i had a congkak match wit umi. first game, drew with her. then second game, lost to her big time.
not bad for someone who's last congkak game was in JC, which was like 2 years ago. aah, *reminiscing the crappy, yet fun MCS days. hahaha*
after pics-tsking, decided to go to pasir ris park. found the place to be still wet.
yet, tt didnt deter us from playin a bit of volleyball and soccer on tt pitch. wit tt inflatable disney ball. had lotsa laughs. especially when we all fell, includin me skali. uuh. and perhaps i tink i got too carried away when i accidentally tackled aisyah. sowie. sowie berlowie lowie.
worked up a bit of sweat too. even tho the weather is not tt hot. *duh, it juz finished raining!*
oh yes. my ma made noise regardin my time of arrival in the hotel.
after tt brief time at the park, off we went to masjid hajjah fatimah for our maghrib.
pastu, off we went to bowling alley.
and there, i had a very very very very very... and on and on... bad game.
in contrast with the rest. who were all improving like mad, especially aisyah, who actually beat our shifu.
congrats to her. and i would be lying if i said im not jealous. but hey, still happy wit the overall performance wit the whole gang tho.
and now i must play catch-up. big time!~
oh yeah. nite elf and gang were there too.
after the bowling thingy, went off to send off dja and umi home.
after tt, jb it was.
my apologies to the rest if i my bad mood after the game had affected the rest. hopefully not. urgh.
durin the ride, me contemplating whether i shud juz take a cab from city sq to the zone. where my family is. but they decided to send me. after a bit of wrong turns and a bit of forced memory-recollecting, thank god we reached there.
and tts they end of my day wit the geng.
got the card and settled down in the room. all by myself. shud haf asked my kuz to tag along. but forgot to call him up. after tt extra-long hot shower, settled down on the bed, flipping channels.
havent had dinner. and thus, looked thru the in-room dining menu.
potpourri chicken chop it is. or is it? *my memory fast failing me*
finished tt in 30 mins. taking, and savouring the moment. out of ten, id give it a 7. uh, since when does khairi noe how to rate food anyway? food is juz food. oh well, someone will surely ask if she reads this.
i think i slept at abt 4plus2, with my hp blastin our music to my ears.
...
170607
again, woke up to the sound of my phone ringing.
my ma. asking me, if i want to come down and join the rest. my sisters in the pool.
left side of me says, alah, takpayalah, gi tdo je.
the right side says, haiz khairi. ure here, coz u want to spend more time wit the family, so juz go ahead. ok. then, quick warm shower and then im downstairs.
so juz chilled by the pool there, observing the antics of my sisters, my parents, and also the ppl ard.
and yeah. there was this sweet-looking malay girl. taking care of her small brothers by the side of the pool. she actually smiled at me. uuh, if only my parents aint there. i would haf done my thang. oh well. exchanges of smiles is enuf i think.
pastu, after all had dried up and showered, gi breakfast buffet. and feasted we did.
checked out at 12.
off to larkin. where my mom went to see the tailor. at same time, got my own measurements. and the tailor can still say,"wah, uve grown bigger, wat happened to u? makan ape?" nang bo ti nang. she was the tailor tt made my raya suit when i was in bmt. urgh. bingit. tapi takleh bingit kat sape2. dirie sendirie nie aje~
and on our way to angsana. proposed to my mom perhaps we can play bowling there, but after recceing the place and realised tt the waiting list is too long, and tt there were too many ppl there, i shelved it.
while my parents gi shopping groceries, i took the time to study these grp of abang2 main bowling. and played they did. im as impressed as hell. and i studied them worth two hours in all. juz stood there and watched them.
there was this abang in pink, a bit soft, but his bowling skills, blow me away. left-hander by the way. hooker.
then this boy ard my age. right hander. hooker. but he plays ball in a way tt it hooks on the left side. and there i was mesmerised. perhaps ill play tt way one day, juz for the heck of it. and yes. almost every turn, he strikes it all.
then theres this old pakcik. white hair all over. rite hander. neither spinner not hooker. he plays the simple straight ball. simple, yet fatal. accurate to the max. aimed every time at the pocket. and most of the time he stikes it. and he also doesn not miss the spares. totally impressed.
last not least, the conventional right hander hooker. seems tt he can get the ball in any position he wants. and he hooks it in this slent manner. none of the noise one makes when he throws the ball. and he was the one i studied the most.
along the way. there was mother and daughter beside this grp of abg2. both hookers. mom played with flair. and daughter, well, shud i say more, jambuuU~ haha. both damn equally good too.
after watchin two games, joined my family for lunch at kenny rogers.
they made a hoohaa coz they couldnt contact me. coz my phone somehow couldnt recieve the malaysian network. oh well.
ride to the 2nd link.
and home sweet home.
then, continue my sleep.
...
190607/1702
worte this all while at work.
and perhaps later ill be goin to a fren's party at sentosa.
perhaps.
if im not tired enuf.
the.end.
chat.180607
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biarlah.rahsia says:
assalamualaikum ~...
Only says:
wa'alaikumsalam khairi
Only says:
hmm..ape yg khairi ingin dibiarkan sbg rahsia?
biarlah.rahsia says:
tiada ape2 yg nak dijadikan rahsia. atau mungkin, tiada gunanya pun kalo ape2 yg terpendam di hati khairi diluahkan pun, coz it may juz end up hurting someone?
biarlah.rahsia says:
u noe ~... the last week, i hurt a dear someone of mine very badly.
biarlah.rahsia says:
~, if u recall me telling u abt.
biarlah.rahsia says:
tt dear lil big sister of mine.
biarlah.rahsia says:
coz of my mouth, i hurt her. and now, i realise, things are not like wat they used to be.
biarlah.rahsia says:
~, sorry if im boring u,
biarlah.rahsia says:
arent u working today?
Only says:
yes i m
Only says:
ur nt boring me
biarlah.rahsia says:
ooppsie. then how cum u online?
Only says:
bt im sori to say that i cnt gv u my full concentratn rite nw
Only says:
im so sorry
Only says:
i feel like rebelling today
Only says:
r u at wrk?
biarlah.rahsia says:
uh huh... im at work. its ok ~. fully comprehended and understooded. hehe. reply whenever ure free. its ok wit me.
biarlah.rahsia says:
why rebel?
Only says:
coz im nt happy here nymr
biarlah.rahsia says:
hmm. if u see yrself unhappy. perhaps, over lunch, u can refer to the classifieds. and then can think abt tendering.... try not to prolong the unhappiness process k ~. be decisive in ending it. khairi bilang aje.
Only says:
i hv done so actuali
Only says:
nywy thanks for the advice
Only says:
kenape khairi mcm cautious aje?
biarlah.rahsia says:
hehe. the ouh-nvm-kinda-late advice u meant.
biarlah.rahsia says:
coz somehow, i tend to hurt ppl with my words.
biarlah.rahsia says:
and the sad thing is, i only noe the extent of the damage only when ive done it.
biarlah.rahsia says:
and it hurts for me, knowing tt my apologies are not really taken seriously. coz ppl ard me know tt i rarely say sorry.
biarlah.rahsia says:
or meaning, i dun apologise easily.
biarlah.rahsia says:
haiz
biarlah.rahsia says:
oh well.
biarlah.rahsia says:
sumthin for me to ponder abt.
biarlah.rahsia says:
jgn kerna mulut, relationships with others get destroyed or turn out for the worse...
Only says:
khairi,ur masalah w ~ bermula bile?
biarlah.rahsia says:
u mean, the very first problems? hmm. way back last mth...
biarlah.rahsia says:
at first its minor2 small miscommunication stuff.
biarlah.rahsia says:
then suddenly last week, the day after that phone call wit u, i somehow got pissed. and said things i shudnt haf.
biarlah.rahsia says:
rocky friendship we haf, but i appreciate it nevertheless...
biarlah.rahsia says:
coz i really do love her as my sister.
Only says:
?
Only says:
sori
Only says:
u tok to her too on the same day?
biarlah.rahsia says:
and thank god, she still cherishes the frenship tt we haf, even tho dah byk kali khairi sakitkan hati ~...
biarlah.rahsia says:
no. on the day after.
biarlah.rahsia says:
now, i realise its not the same anymore, and now, im buliding up again the close rapport tt we had.
biarlah.rahsia says:
the wound will always be there... but heck, at least, we still frens.
biarlah.rahsia says:
im guessin lunch is nearing soon for u rite ~?
Only says:
it is lunch time already
Only says:
dnt u notice dat im more responsive nw
Only says:
hehe
Only says:
u knw wat...im sort of facing the same thing as u
Only says:
i was accused of being complacent towards frenships built
biarlah.rahsia says:
gulps~ ya allah.
biarlah.rahsia says:
exactly.
biarlah.rahsia says:
hmm. im like asking myself, " wats up with us???!!!"
Only says:
yeah.wats up w us
Only says:
bt i think there's a slight difference in our problems
Only says:
mine r frenships i think isnt worth bothering too much abt
Only says:
whereas urs should be fought for
Only says:
mine r guys who arent able to differentiate my intention n his
Only says:
tapikn bukan seorang tau..malah tiga orang
Only says:
kemungkinan stress dikeje is affecting my life in a way
Only says:
alhamdulillah so far my best frens and family hvnt gven negatvie feedbck
biarlah.rahsia says:
hmm. im juz wondering, the guys u meant are juz guys who wants yr attention?
Only says:
yes attn
Only says:
i cn gv them dat bt i nid to set aside time for family too n my besties
Only says:
cn i ask u if i speak arrogantly?
biarlah.rahsia says:
no. u dun.
biarlah.rahsia says:
actuallykan, u haf all the rite to whom u want to spend yr time with.
biarlah.rahsia says:
no one shud be forcin u in any way
biarlah.rahsia says:
up to doz guys to deal wit it in a mature manner.
biarlah.rahsia says:
if they cant, too bad for them.
biarlah.rahsia says:
take this as one way as knowin them further.
biarlah.rahsia says:
and then, easy as it seems, which it is, filter them out one by one.
biarlah.rahsia says:
why do u ask tt u talk in an arrogant manner?
Only says:
it iswat i hv bn told
Only says:
in the words of a guy.."u talk as if u above other ppl"
Only says:
i guez ur rite
Only says:
i dnt need many frens
Only says:
id rather hv few bt treasured ones
Only says:
lagipun it is my life..i will run it the way i think is best for me and my loved ones
Only says:
lunch time soon?
biarlah.rahsia says:
my lunch time is at one.
biarlah.rahsia says: :)
biarlah.rahsia says:
but ill not be eating.
biarlah.rahsia says:
ill be taking a walk instead.
biarlah.rahsia says:
yes ~.
biarlah.rahsia says:
i agree wit yr sentiment regardin tt.
biarlah.rahsia says:
u noe, somehow, ppl who arent open-minded enuf, will feel inferior to someone else who's different than him, in regards to attitude, or knowledge.
Only says:
taking a walk to where?
biarlah.rahsia says:
perhaps, its due to his lack of self-esteem.
biarlah.rahsia says:
insecure prolly
biarlah.rahsia says:
im talkin a walk to masjid omar.
biarlah.rahsia says:
wat did u haf for lunch?
Only says:
thanks khairi.u hv put into words their actions perfectly
Only says:
now im able to sift thru the list
Only says:
i din hv lunch
Only says:
hw'sur monday so far?
biarlah.rahsia says:
work-wise, nothing much, but thank god, no feeling of the monday blues either. haha. its juz me and the com. and the work. not too much work, nor too little. tts why i can pace myself juz nice enuf. so tt i wont be left hanging ard when im done wit all my work. hmm, personal wise, its good, coz im like chatting wit sumone who is peculiarly like me, and tt itself is a form of education for me
Only says:
bt i think ur educating me more than im educating u.unless ur toking abt self educatn lah.hehe
biarlah.rahsia says:
alah ~. id rather like to think of it as a two way education.
biarlah.rahsia says:
somehow, yr woes always seek to remind myself too on not expecting too much from anybody.
biarlah.rahsia says:
and also to remind myself, tt the world dun revolve ard me.
biarlah.rahsia says:
u noe, i tend to be very the high expectations kind of person in regards to frenships.
biarlah.rahsia says:
coz i tend not to be friends too easily, i also tend to expect too much things from the friends tt i haf.
biarlah.rahsia says:
and also,
biarlah.rahsia says:
by reading what im writing, its kinda educational too, too really see where yr mind and attitude is heading.
biarlah.rahsia says:
so, ~, it IS a two way thing. khairi tak shiok sendiri k? kehekhekeh
Only says:
lolz.definitely tk shiok sendiri
Only says:
u hv high expectatns of frenships huh.may i knw in wat sense?
biarlah.rahsia says:
had.
biarlah.rahsia says:
prolly still haf. but im consciously tryna minimise it.'
biarlah.rahsia says:
the person to haf made me realise this is ~.
biarlah.rahsia says:
perhaps, at the back of my mind,
biarlah.rahsia says:
i wanted my frenships to revolve ard me. much as like how the planets revolve ard the sun.
biarlah.rahsia says:
i think i was like tt.
biarlah.rahsia says:
and perhaps, subconsciously, i would tend to get irritated if im not the center of attention.
biarlah.rahsia says:
perhaps so.
biarlah.rahsia says:
tts why i was so choosy.
Only says:
oh.it muz b quite a feat to actuali gain ur frenship then
biarlah.rahsia says:
a feat? hahaha. perhaps its an underlying curse.
biarlah.rahsia says:
haha. entahlah anissa.
biarlah.rahsia says:
can i ask u sumthin, so far, wat do u think of me (interpret/answer tt qn in any way tt suits u)
Only says:
curse?
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ish...
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frm my pt of view,ppl who hv gained ur frenship are the victorious ones
Only says:
for that ans,u'll hv to wait til after lunch ya
Only says: :)
biarlah.rahsia says:
masyallah. and for tt, im expecting a 350 word essay. no less.
biarlah.rahsia says:
kehekhekehe
biarlah.rahsia says:
joking.
biarlah.rahsia says:
aite.
biarlah.rahsia says:
ill haf to be on my walk oredi.
biarlah.rahsia says:
catch u later k anissa.
biarlah.rahsia says:
assalamualaikum~
Only says:
wa'alaikumsalam
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wat ~ thinks of khair
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*khairi
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articulate
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smart
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selective coz he's cautious
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khairi is training himself to bcm a better person
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n i rasa khairi tk lokek ilmu
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so far,i like wat i knw abt khairi
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khairi has his insecurities
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tapi khairi doesnt lack confidence
biarlah.rahsia says:
hello ~. im back. is tt only a preview of the 350 words essay i was hopin for? hehehe. main2 jer.
biarlah.rahsia says:
thank u for giving a summary of me.
Only says:
no problem
Only says:
im sure u dnt agree w all of it
biarlah.rahsia says:
yes. u are rite. i dun agree w confidence fully... im only confident wit battles tt i noe i can overcome. but not confident with the uncertain ones. also, alhamdullilah, yes, i may be smart in yr eyes, but in mine and some others, i tend to over-do the smartness, to the point where ppl will think im arrogant, or perhaps, its the way i convey messages or ideas. i lack tact, if u must noe.
biarlah.rahsia says:
and im still learnin new things, especially things tt has never come across to my mind.
biarlah.rahsia says:
hmm. juz wondering, after givin me tt summary of myself, do u think u identify wit them, or rather, most of it?
Only says:
s i was thinking thru wat to tell u abt u
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i try not to type similar qualities
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but guez wat...there's one point u hd md above which is true of me
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i lack tact
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n i think i knw y
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it is bcoz of my education environment
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i hv always bn in an environment where ppl r of higher or similar intelligence as i m
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n among us,it is alrite to speak w/o much tact coz we hv to stand out or gt our point across
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among us,there was nothing wrong w the way we voice our ideas etc
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bt when i leave school,i hv nt accomodated to the real world environment out here
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at wrk,im still alrite
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bt nt w those ppl outside
biarlah.rahsia says:
yes. sumhow for me too, i can very opinionated. to the pt where i cannot take others' criticisms very well. ironic, since im a natural critic. haha. again, ~ pointed this out to me. and also the fact tt, yes, altho education is good, it can bring a person to be bongkak and proud, and tts what she wanted me to avoid. bagaikan pepatah, mengikut resmi padi, semakin berisi, semakin tunduk. :
biarlah.rahsia says:
u noe, somehow, rite now, it juz occured to me tt, perhaps its a blessing tt i shudnt find frens tt can revolve ard me. sometimes, along the way, we do need someone else outside our way of thinking and living to knock some extra sense into our heads. khekehek
Only says:
bt when dat happened to me over the weekend,i was affected
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thank goodness i spoke to my family abt it yesterday over dinner
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n dad actuali said something which never cm across my mind
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he said that im mkng frens,u mz mk clear ur intentions right frm the beginning
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mk it clear to the other party
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coz u dnt wana leave too much room for assumptions
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he told us that nt many ppl r alike
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our education,upbringing cn differ vastly
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bt that doesnt mean we stay only w ppl who r pretty similar to us
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we muz,s u hd said,proceed w tact and an open mind
biarlah.rahsia says:
yupz2. i haf to agree with yr dad on those points.
biarlah.rahsia says:
ure pretty lucky tt u can talk w yr parents openly.
biarlah.rahsia says:
sad to say, somehow i cant.
biarlah.rahsia says:
somehow, my parents expect me to go thru life knowing what to do abt in things.
biarlah.rahsia says:
and sumhow, i dun approach them when i haf problems.
biarlah.rahsia says:
haiz. sad. but tts the way it is.
Only says:
ouh...im surprised my dad actuali said something
biarlah.rahsia says:
worse still, my father dun really talk tt much. he's wat u call, the silent one.
Only says:
he hardly everdoes
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my dad is also the silent one
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mayb yesterday was father's day
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n we hd our father'sday dinner out
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we were all at the same table
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i was toking to my adik2 actuali tapi bapak pulak yg dngr n beri nasihat
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hehe
biarlah.rahsia says:
ouh. shows tt altho some ppl may juz be silent, they do observe. like yr dad.
biarlah.rahsia says:
and tt perhaps, they only talk when necessary.
Only says:
bt i do wonder y he had tot that yesterday was a necessary time to tok?
biarlah.rahsia says:
perhaps, he thinks it concerns yr life greatly.
biarlah.rahsia says:
and perhaps, he realises tt somehow, he needs to teach u a thing or two when it comes to socialising.
biarlah.rahsia says:
especially when it comes to guys.
biarlah.rahsia says:
perhaps making sure, ull choose the right son in law for him?
biarlah.rahsia says:
wallahualam~ hehe
Only says:
hehe
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gdness..there is lots of truth in ur analysis
Only says:
bt i knw that my parents aren't willing to let their daughter gt married yet.at least nt within the nxt 3 yrs
biarlah.rahsia says:
u noe tt for a fact?
Only says:
hmm...atleast when it comes to mum,im absolutely sure
Only says:
unless,the guy wooing me is perfect
biggest.war.im.up.against.(myself) says:
perfect in terms of?... pardon my asking. im juz really curious. and wanna confirm my own tots, as to what a mum/ or a girl would want in a son-in-law.
Only says:
if u ask me..my honest ans wil b i dnt knw
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bt i think for my mum at least...
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he has gt to hv a stable job
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preferably as educated as i m
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pendidikan ugama harus ade
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n tk boleberat mulut
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i knw for a fact mum doesnt like our ex bfs who were berat mulut
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nk kene pandai ramah ngan her
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bt i think mum's utmost criteria is his ability to gv her daughter kehidupan g selesa
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coz mak yg mane nk tngk anak dia hidup susah kn
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bt then again comfort may nt equal to happiness rite?
biggest.war.im.up.against.(myself) says:
true. i think i already told u, wat i think ciri ape yg sepatutnyer ada pd seseorang suami.
biggest.war.im.up.against.(myself) says:
wateva yr mom asks for is normal.
biggest.war.im.up.against.(myself) says:
cume part yg berat mulut tt im surprised.
biggest.war.im.up.against.(myself) says:
heh. the impression tt u gave of yr father is tt he is a silent one. hehe
Only says:
i jz received a msg frm mum-my datuk'sbn hospitalized
biggest.war.im.up.against.(myself) says:
ironic rite.
biggest.war.im.up.against.(myself) says:
i pray tt he's alrite.
Only says:
dats y..based on her experience,she doesnt wan us to hv the same fate
Only says:
honestly,i knw dat mum n dad cannot communicate
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nt in the sense that they scream at each other
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they dnt communicate with each other
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part ini,i hv to agree w mum
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coz sometimes,iunderstand her frustrations
biggest.war.im.up.against.(myself) says:
uh huh. communication is key. entahlah ye. for my dad pulak, similar pulak.
biggest.war.im.up.against.(myself) says:
yet, i find tt he communicated better wit my mom way than his children.
biggest.war.im.up.against.(myself) says:
he's more open to my mom.
biggest.war.im.up.against.(myself) says:
hard for me to understand his psche...
Only says:
mayb bcoz it is bcoz he's bn w ur mum longer than he has bn w the children?
biggest.war.im.up.against.(myself) says:
god. 21 years aint enuf? uh.
Only says:
hehe
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do u knw dat i communicate w dad thru the hp?
biggest.war.im.up.against.(myself) says:
no i didnt noe.
biggest.war.im.up.against.(myself) says:
i only talk to him whenever theres a need to. and same for him. and those times only come when he find tt i do sumthin wrong.
biggest.war.im.up.against.(myself) says:
otherwise no.
biggest.war.im.up.against.(myself) says:
he doesnt congratulate me or anythin when i pass my exams. or even if i got to uni.
biggest.war.im.up.against.(myself) says:
he never say anythin!
biggest.war.im.up.against.(myself) says:
he only says sumthin when its makin him unhappy.
biggest.war.im.up.against.(myself) says:
and this makes me unhappy thinkin abt it.
biggest.war.im.up.against.(myself) says:
urgh~
Only says:
ok we shall stop here
Only says:
dnt wana mk u unhappy
biggest.war.im.up.against.(myself) says:
actually im fine as it is rite now. dun worry. i meant, with tt particular thing im talkin abt.
biggest.war.im.up.against.(myself) says:
im wondering, isit a fault of mine?
biggest.war.im.up.against.(myself) says:
haiz.
Only says:
fault of urs?
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pls dnt start blaming urself
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i hv a qns though..is he like dis to all of ur sibligs as well?
biggest.war.im.up.against.(myself) says:
u noe. somehow, as we get older, he tend to get distant. i noe tt for a fact.
biggest.war.im.up.against.(myself) says:
now he is quite close to the girls. who r younger
biggest.war.im.up.against.(myself) says:
but the eldest of em, feeling the distance oredi
biggest.war.im.up.against.(myself) says:
i can see it.
biggest.war.im.up.against.(myself) says:
brb
...
end~
biarlah.rahsia says:
assalamualaikum ~...
Only says:
wa'alaikumsalam khairi
Only says:
hmm..ape yg khairi ingin dibiarkan sbg rahsia?
biarlah.rahsia says:
tiada ape2 yg nak dijadikan rahsia. atau mungkin, tiada gunanya pun kalo ape2 yg terpendam di hati khairi diluahkan pun, coz it may juz end up hurting someone?
biarlah.rahsia says:
u noe ~... the last week, i hurt a dear someone of mine very badly.
biarlah.rahsia says:
~, if u recall me telling u abt.
biarlah.rahsia says:
tt dear lil big sister of mine.
biarlah.rahsia says:
coz of my mouth, i hurt her. and now, i realise, things are not like wat they used to be.
biarlah.rahsia says:
~, sorry if im boring u,
biarlah.rahsia says:
arent u working today?
Only says:
yes i m
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ur nt boring me
biarlah.rahsia says:
ooppsie. then how cum u online?
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bt im sori to say that i cnt gv u my full concentratn rite nw
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im so sorry
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i feel like rebelling today
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r u at wrk?
biarlah.rahsia says:
uh huh... im at work. its ok ~. fully comprehended and understooded. hehe. reply whenever ure free. its ok wit me.
biarlah.rahsia says:
why rebel?
Only says:
coz im nt happy here nymr
biarlah.rahsia says:
hmm. if u see yrself unhappy. perhaps, over lunch, u can refer to the classifieds. and then can think abt tendering.... try not to prolong the unhappiness process k ~. be decisive in ending it. khairi bilang aje.
Only says:
i hv done so actuali
Only says:
nywy thanks for the advice
Only says:
kenape khairi mcm cautious aje?
biarlah.rahsia says:
hehe. the ouh-nvm-kinda-late advice u meant.
biarlah.rahsia says:
coz somehow, i tend to hurt ppl with my words.
biarlah.rahsia says:
and the sad thing is, i only noe the extent of the damage only when ive done it.
biarlah.rahsia says:
and it hurts for me, knowing tt my apologies are not really taken seriously. coz ppl ard me know tt i rarely say sorry.
biarlah.rahsia says:
or meaning, i dun apologise easily.
biarlah.rahsia says:
haiz
biarlah.rahsia says:
oh well.
biarlah.rahsia says:
sumthin for me to ponder abt.
biarlah.rahsia says:
jgn kerna mulut, relationships with others get destroyed or turn out for the worse...
Only says:
khairi,ur masalah w ~ bermula bile?
biarlah.rahsia says:
u mean, the very first problems? hmm. way back last mth...
biarlah.rahsia says:
at first its minor2 small miscommunication stuff.
biarlah.rahsia says:
then suddenly last week, the day after that phone call wit u, i somehow got pissed. and said things i shudnt haf.
biarlah.rahsia says:
rocky friendship we haf, but i appreciate it nevertheless...
biarlah.rahsia says:
coz i really do love her as my sister.
Only says:
?
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sori
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u tok to her too on the same day?
biarlah.rahsia says:
and thank god, she still cherishes the frenship tt we haf, even tho dah byk kali khairi sakitkan hati ~...
biarlah.rahsia says:
no. on the day after.
biarlah.rahsia says:
now, i realise its not the same anymore, and now, im buliding up again the close rapport tt we had.
biarlah.rahsia says:
the wound will always be there... but heck, at least, we still frens.
biarlah.rahsia says:
im guessin lunch is nearing soon for u rite ~?
Only says:
it is lunch time already
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dnt u notice dat im more responsive nw
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hehe
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u knw wat...im sort of facing the same thing as u
Only says:
i was accused of being complacent towards frenships built
biarlah.rahsia says:
gulps~ ya allah.
biarlah.rahsia says:
exactly.
biarlah.rahsia says:
hmm. im like asking myself, " wats up with us???!!!"
Only says:
yeah.wats up w us
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bt i think there's a slight difference in our problems
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mine r frenships i think isnt worth bothering too much abt
Only says:
whereas urs should be fought for
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mine r guys who arent able to differentiate my intention n his
Only says:
tapikn bukan seorang tau..malah tiga orang
Only says:
kemungkinan stress dikeje is affecting my life in a way
Only says:
alhamdulillah so far my best frens and family hvnt gven negatvie feedbck
biarlah.rahsia says:
hmm. im juz wondering, the guys u meant are juz guys who wants yr attention?
Only says:
yes attn
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i cn gv them dat bt i nid to set aside time for family too n my besties
Only says:
cn i ask u if i speak arrogantly?
biarlah.rahsia says:
no. u dun.
biarlah.rahsia says:
actuallykan, u haf all the rite to whom u want to spend yr time with.
biarlah.rahsia says:
no one shud be forcin u in any way
biarlah.rahsia says:
up to doz guys to deal wit it in a mature manner.
biarlah.rahsia says:
if they cant, too bad for them.
biarlah.rahsia says:
take this as one way as knowin them further.
biarlah.rahsia says:
and then, easy as it seems, which it is, filter them out one by one.
biarlah.rahsia says:
why do u ask tt u talk in an arrogant manner?
Only says:
it iswat i hv bn told
Only says:
in the words of a guy.."u talk as if u above other ppl"
Only says:
i guez ur rite
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i dnt need many frens
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id rather hv few bt treasured ones
Only says:
lagipun it is my life..i will run it the way i think is best for me and my loved ones
Only says:
lunch time soon?
biarlah.rahsia says:
my lunch time is at one.
biarlah.rahsia says: :)
biarlah.rahsia says:
but ill not be eating.
biarlah.rahsia says:
ill be taking a walk instead.
biarlah.rahsia says:
yes ~.
biarlah.rahsia says:
i agree wit yr sentiment regardin tt.
biarlah.rahsia says:
u noe, somehow, ppl who arent open-minded enuf, will feel inferior to someone else who's different than him, in regards to attitude, or knowledge.
Only says:
taking a walk to where?
biarlah.rahsia says:
perhaps, its due to his lack of self-esteem.
biarlah.rahsia says:
insecure prolly
biarlah.rahsia says:
im talkin a walk to masjid omar.
biarlah.rahsia says:
wat did u haf for lunch?
Only says:
thanks khairi.u hv put into words their actions perfectly
Only says:
now im able to sift thru the list
Only says:
i din hv lunch
Only says:
hw'sur monday so far?
biarlah.rahsia says:
work-wise, nothing much, but thank god, no feeling of the monday blues either. haha. its juz me and the com. and the work. not too much work, nor too little. tts why i can pace myself juz nice enuf. so tt i wont be left hanging ard when im done wit all my work. hmm, personal wise, its good, coz im like chatting wit sumone who is peculiarly like me, and tt itself is a form of education for me
Only says:
bt i think ur educating me more than im educating u.unless ur toking abt self educatn lah.hehe
biarlah.rahsia says:
alah ~. id rather like to think of it as a two way education.
biarlah.rahsia says:
somehow, yr woes always seek to remind myself too on not expecting too much from anybody.
biarlah.rahsia says:
and also to remind myself, tt the world dun revolve ard me.
biarlah.rahsia says:
u noe, i tend to be very the high expectations kind of person in regards to frenships.
biarlah.rahsia says:
coz i tend not to be friends too easily, i also tend to expect too much things from the friends tt i haf.
biarlah.rahsia says:
and also,
biarlah.rahsia says:
by reading what im writing, its kinda educational too, too really see where yr mind and attitude is heading.
biarlah.rahsia says:
so, ~, it IS a two way thing. khairi tak shiok sendiri k? kehekhekeh
Only says:
lolz.definitely tk shiok sendiri
Only says:
u hv high expectatns of frenships huh.may i knw in wat sense?
biarlah.rahsia says:
had.
biarlah.rahsia says:
prolly still haf. but im consciously tryna minimise it.'
biarlah.rahsia says:
the person to haf made me realise this is ~.
biarlah.rahsia says:
perhaps, at the back of my mind,
biarlah.rahsia says:
i wanted my frenships to revolve ard me. much as like how the planets revolve ard the sun.
biarlah.rahsia says:
i think i was like tt.
biarlah.rahsia says:
and perhaps, subconsciously, i would tend to get irritated if im not the center of attention.
biarlah.rahsia says:
perhaps so.
biarlah.rahsia says:
tts why i was so choosy.
Only says:
oh.it muz b quite a feat to actuali gain ur frenship then
biarlah.rahsia says:
a feat? hahaha. perhaps its an underlying curse.
biarlah.rahsia says:
haha. entahlah anissa.
biarlah.rahsia says:
can i ask u sumthin, so far, wat do u think of me (interpret/answer tt qn in any way tt suits u)
Only says:
curse?
Only says:
ish...
Only says:
frm my pt of view,ppl who hv gained ur frenship are the victorious ones
Only says:
for that ans,u'll hv to wait til after lunch ya
Only says: :)
biarlah.rahsia says:
masyallah. and for tt, im expecting a 350 word essay. no less.
biarlah.rahsia says:
kehekhekehe
biarlah.rahsia says:
joking.
biarlah.rahsia says:
aite.
biarlah.rahsia says:
ill haf to be on my walk oredi.
biarlah.rahsia says:
catch u later k anissa.
biarlah.rahsia says:
assalamualaikum~
Only says:
wa'alaikumsalam
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wat ~ thinks of khair
Only says:
*khairi
Only says:
articulate
Only says:
smart
Only says:
selective coz he's cautious
Only says:
khairi is training himself to bcm a better person
Only says:
n i rasa khairi tk lokek ilmu
Only says:
so far,i like wat i knw abt khairi
Only says:
khairi has his insecurities
Only says:
tapi khairi doesnt lack confidence
biarlah.rahsia says:
hello ~. im back. is tt only a preview of the 350 words essay i was hopin for? hehehe. main2 jer.
biarlah.rahsia says:
thank u for giving a summary of me.
Only says:
no problem
Only says:
im sure u dnt agree w all of it
biarlah.rahsia says:
yes. u are rite. i dun agree w confidence fully... im only confident wit battles tt i noe i can overcome. but not confident with the uncertain ones. also, alhamdullilah, yes, i may be smart in yr eyes, but in mine and some others, i tend to over-do the smartness, to the point where ppl will think im arrogant, or perhaps, its the way i convey messages or ideas. i lack tact, if u must noe.
biarlah.rahsia says:
and im still learnin new things, especially things tt has never come across to my mind.
biarlah.rahsia says:
hmm. juz wondering, after givin me tt summary of myself, do u think u identify wit them, or rather, most of it?
Only says:
s i was thinking thru wat to tell u abt u
Only says:
i try not to type similar qualities
Only says:
but guez wat...there's one point u hd md above which is true of me
Only says:
i lack tact
Only says:
n i think i knw y
Only says:
it is bcoz of my education environment
Only says:
i hv always bn in an environment where ppl r of higher or similar intelligence as i m
Only says:
n among us,it is alrite to speak w/o much tact coz we hv to stand out or gt our point across
Only says:
among us,there was nothing wrong w the way we voice our ideas etc
Only says:
bt when i leave school,i hv nt accomodated to the real world environment out here
Only says:
at wrk,im still alrite
Only says:
bt nt w those ppl outside
biarlah.rahsia says:
yes. sumhow for me too, i can very opinionated. to the pt where i cannot take others' criticisms very well. ironic, since im a natural critic. haha. again, ~ pointed this out to me. and also the fact tt, yes, altho education is good, it can bring a person to be bongkak and proud, and tts what she wanted me to avoid. bagaikan pepatah, mengikut resmi padi, semakin berisi, semakin tunduk. :
biarlah.rahsia says:
u noe, somehow, rite now, it juz occured to me tt, perhaps its a blessing tt i shudnt find frens tt can revolve ard me. sometimes, along the way, we do need someone else outside our way of thinking and living to knock some extra sense into our heads. khekehek
Only says:
bt when dat happened to me over the weekend,i was affected
Only says:
thank goodness i spoke to my family abt it yesterday over dinner
Only says:
n dad actuali said something which never cm across my mind
Only says:
he said that im mkng frens,u mz mk clear ur intentions right frm the beginning
Only says:
mk it clear to the other party
Only says:
coz u dnt wana leave too much room for assumptions
Only says:
he told us that nt many ppl r alike
Only says:
our education,upbringing cn differ vastly
Only says:
bt that doesnt mean we stay only w ppl who r pretty similar to us
Only says:
we muz,s u hd said,proceed w tact and an open mind
biarlah.rahsia says:
yupz2. i haf to agree with yr dad on those points.
biarlah.rahsia says:
ure pretty lucky tt u can talk w yr parents openly.
biarlah.rahsia says:
sad to say, somehow i cant.
biarlah.rahsia says:
somehow, my parents expect me to go thru life knowing what to do abt in things.
biarlah.rahsia says:
and sumhow, i dun approach them when i haf problems.
biarlah.rahsia says:
haiz. sad. but tts the way it is.
Only says:
ouh...im surprised my dad actuali said something
biarlah.rahsia says:
worse still, my father dun really talk tt much. he's wat u call, the silent one.
Only says:
he hardly everdoes
Only says:
my dad is also the silent one
Only says:
mayb yesterday was father's day
Only says:
n we hd our father'sday dinner out
Only says:
we were all at the same table
Only says:
i was toking to my adik2 actuali tapi bapak pulak yg dngr n beri nasihat
Only says:
hehe
biarlah.rahsia says:
ouh. shows tt altho some ppl may juz be silent, they do observe. like yr dad.
biarlah.rahsia says:
and tt perhaps, they only talk when necessary.
Only says:
bt i do wonder y he had tot that yesterday was a necessary time to tok?
biarlah.rahsia says:
perhaps, he thinks it concerns yr life greatly.
biarlah.rahsia says:
and perhaps, he realises tt somehow, he needs to teach u a thing or two when it comes to socialising.
biarlah.rahsia says:
especially when it comes to guys.
biarlah.rahsia says:
perhaps making sure, ull choose the right son in law for him?
biarlah.rahsia says:
wallahualam~ hehe
Only says:
hehe
Only says:
gdness..there is lots of truth in ur analysis
Only says:
bt i knw that my parents aren't willing to let their daughter gt married yet.at least nt within the nxt 3 yrs
biarlah.rahsia says:
u noe tt for a fact?
Only says:
hmm...atleast when it comes to mum,im absolutely sure
Only says:
unless,the guy wooing me is perfect
biggest.war.im.up.against.(myself) says:
perfect in terms of?... pardon my asking. im juz really curious. and wanna confirm my own tots, as to what a mum/ or a girl would want in a son-in-law.
Only says:
if u ask me..my honest ans wil b i dnt knw
Only says:
bt i think for my mum at least...
Only says:
he has gt to hv a stable job
Only says:
preferably as educated as i m
Only says:
pendidikan ugama harus ade
Only says:
n tk boleberat mulut
Only says:
i knw for a fact mum doesnt like our ex bfs who were berat mulut
Only says:
nk kene pandai ramah ngan her
Only says:
bt i think mum's utmost criteria is his ability to gv her daughter kehidupan g selesa
Only says:
coz mak yg mane nk tngk anak dia hidup susah kn
Only says:
bt then again comfort may nt equal to happiness rite?
biggest.war.im.up.against.(myself) says:
true. i think i already told u, wat i think ciri ape yg sepatutnyer ada pd seseorang suami.
biggest.war.im.up.against.(myself) says:
wateva yr mom asks for is normal.
biggest.war.im.up.against.(myself) says:
cume part yg berat mulut tt im surprised.
biggest.war.im.up.against.(myself) says:
heh. the impression tt u gave of yr father is tt he is a silent one. hehe
Only says:
i jz received a msg frm mum-my datuk'sbn hospitalized
biggest.war.im.up.against.(myself) says:
ironic rite.
biggest.war.im.up.against.(myself) says:
i pray tt he's alrite.
Only says:
dats y..based on her experience,she doesnt wan us to hv the same fate
Only says:
honestly,i knw dat mum n dad cannot communicate
Only says:
nt in the sense that they scream at each other
Only says:
they dnt communicate with each other
Only says:
part ini,i hv to agree w mum
Only says:
coz sometimes,iunderstand her frustrations
biggest.war.im.up.against.(myself) says:
uh huh. communication is key. entahlah ye. for my dad pulak, similar pulak.
biggest.war.im.up.against.(myself) says:
yet, i find tt he communicated better wit my mom way than his children.
biggest.war.im.up.against.(myself) says:
he's more open to my mom.
biggest.war.im.up.against.(myself) says:
hard for me to understand his psche...
Only says:
mayb bcoz it is bcoz he's bn w ur mum longer than he has bn w the children?
biggest.war.im.up.against.(myself) says:
god. 21 years aint enuf? uh.
Only says:
hehe
Only says:
do u knw dat i communicate w dad thru the hp?
biggest.war.im.up.against.(myself) says:
no i didnt noe.
biggest.war.im.up.against.(myself) says:
i only talk to him whenever theres a need to. and same for him. and those times only come when he find tt i do sumthin wrong.
biggest.war.im.up.against.(myself) says:
otherwise no.
biggest.war.im.up.against.(myself) says:
he doesnt congratulate me or anythin when i pass my exams. or even if i got to uni.
biggest.war.im.up.against.(myself) says:
he never say anythin!
biggest.war.im.up.against.(myself) says:
he only says sumthin when its makin him unhappy.
biggest.war.im.up.against.(myself) says:
and this makes me unhappy thinkin abt it.
biggest.war.im.up.against.(myself) says:
urgh~
Only says:
ok we shall stop here
Only says:
dnt wana mk u unhappy
biggest.war.im.up.against.(myself) says:
actually im fine as it is rite now. dun worry. i meant, with tt particular thing im talkin abt.
biggest.war.im.up.against.(myself) says:
im wondering, isit a fault of mine?
biggest.war.im.up.against.(myself) says:
haiz.
Only says:
fault of urs?
Only says:
pls dnt start blaming urself
Only says:
i hv a qns though..is he like dis to all of ur sibligs as well?
biggest.war.im.up.against.(myself) says:
u noe. somehow, as we get older, he tend to get distant. i noe tt for a fact.
biggest.war.im.up.against.(myself) says:
now he is quite close to the girls. who r younger
biggest.war.im.up.against.(myself) says:
but the eldest of em, feeling the distance oredi
biggest.war.im.up.against.(myself) says:
i can see it.
biggest.war.im.up.against.(myself) says:
brb
...
end~
saturday.9th(floorball&bowling)
120607-0111
The weekend of 9th and 10th June was a very physically exhausting one to say the least. Packed with things to do, that somehow left my body aching, muscles cramping on Monday morning.
On Saturday morning, met up with a BMT buddy of mine, Sekar, at Northpoint Starbucks. Over choc chip frapp and caramel frapp, we had fun as we caught up with each other's lives since the last time we met, which was like, hmm, more than a year ago? oh em gee... And had a enjoyably time having good laughs, reminscing each other's crazy antics in BMT. heh. Im a little bit jealous of him, he didnt seem to be putting on much weight. Unlike me, he seemed to haf maintained it for quite a bit.
Unfortunately, that chilling session was very brief, lasted not more than an hour, as i had to go for a floorball friendly back in my dear ol' junior college. supposed to be there at 12. but in the end, only to find out tt the first friendly that my team, the YJC Alumnni team, will be played at 130pm. this becoz there were other teams there, Northbrooks Sec and TP, and the current YJC team itself, namely the teams tt are coached by coach Ngasti.
the first match, against Northbrooks boys, my team drew 4-4 with them. and yeah. we struggled with their pace and their flair. its a wonder tt we manage to draw with them. haha. we haf basically not train with each other since god knows when. too bad, our skills werent as good as before. especially me, to be honest. and yeah, i think its not an exaggeration when i say i was one of the best defenders during my time, together with fadzly. but saturday showed me how my skills haf greatly rusted, and it showed how i need a new stick badly. heh. actually no lah. the most obvious thing tt it showed was tt i haf completely lost my level of fitness and speed, and even sadder to say, im even worse off before i enter the NS. boo hoo hoo~!
after the first match, me, melvin and chin went to the nearby coffeshop to haf our lunch. managed to do a bit of catching up too~ and i had indian bee hoon goreng, no less! urgh. macam mane nak turun berat badan nie mcm??? grr.~ next match, against the current YJC team is told to be at three,thirty. but in the end, turned out to be at 4 plus2. and yeah, this time there was no escape, we lost 2-3 to the current YJC team. oh well, it could haf been worse. still, losing or winning, tho it IS still iportant to me, is NOT the penultimate thing. thing is, i had fun playing floorball, especially with the team-mates of my batch. its like so the reliving of all times, and this time, its better, coz the school bought those wall to wall boundaries, and thus, the game picks up much much faster. no more small breaks when ball go over or sumthing. haha. and yeah, i think i hurt my heel in all the excitement, as left me slightly limping afther the game.
wave after wave of the nostalgia came flooding in. as my eyes slowly soak in the rustic structures of the school, lil bits and pieces of memories came into my mind. aah~
those crazy malay lessons in the library, those times i chilled out with hannah in her class and also the library, those times we played soccer on the "hockey pitch" (in real fact, its juz a normal grass pitch, only smaller), even in the rain, those times where we spent eating meals together during breaks.
ahh, well, memories they will remain, but im sure, if really i get to heaven, i may get to relive them.
everythin finished at abt 5pm. and yeah, didnt get to meet afiq as planned. so i told him to meet the ladies first, and ill be joining them later. so, i limped all the way home, prayin tt the cold shower would dampen away the bruises and aching tt i was undergoin then. and was hoping tt the cold water will freshen up my mind so tt i wont be all dreary when im with them.
chop2 mandi, had my dinner, (coz they were already having theirs), and went to flag a cab. was thinkin i shud haf juz taken the mrt, but i didnt coz i couldnt see myself standin all the way in the mrt in tt bad physical state...
rched bugis at abt 635pm. and had two sticks while waiting for them to arrive. and yeah, there was this hot tudung chick. haha. oh well, juz a thing for me to appreciate from afar, nothing more. :)
suddenly i saw a group of ppl all clad in brown at the traffic junction. one tall guy and three short ones. kehkehek. i was like thinkin, oh my god!~, theyre all wearing brown. including me. its like suddenly theres suddenly a brown parade in town or sumthing haha. actually we did plan haf the ladies wearing black, and then me and afiq wearing brown, but this wasnt like i wat i anticipated to feel. kehkehekhe. kinda cute actually. :P
made our way up to the shop where they got those big big neoprint machine. and then, and then, we took pictures. posed mcm tak pernah pose, even afiq, who had the stone-cold smile in school, got the hang of it. even worked up a sweat in the process, prolly cause theres no fan in the machine. kehkehe. luckily had dja and umi. coz the machine's text is in japanese! had to do two times coz the first time, we didnt choose the pics, and my face was caught in a slumber-like mode. no good no good.
after the haitus in the photo booth, rushed to sultan mosque to perform our solat maghrib. me and afiq reached the bowling center first at 755. the girls reached later. *drumroll* and then, we let the games begin!
there was an electricity in the air, as everyone strived to up their game by a notch. which i think we did. :) me and aisyah wasnt as uptite abt the game like we were before. more chilled and relaxed now. but sumhow, dja pulak yg teropposite. entah mengape. takmo stress2 k. tak manis. one tip in being good in bowling, according to afiq, is not to let oneself be caught up with the disappointment of a bad showing. instead, try to reflect on every possible tt may haf contributed to the bad throw. like postioning, grip on the ball, etc etc. yesh. i think its safe to say tt i did improve tremendously, thanks to afiq. and now, safe to say tt i can hook the ball a great deal. just hafta be more careful on the placing of the ball and the power imposed on it. apparently my arm strength is still a bit weak.
this time, there more hi-fives all around, and more smiles definitely. it was enjoyable to say the least and the company was great. :) but, good things haf to come to an end eventually. tot of playing four games, but by the third game, told tt it was to be our last. a bit disappointed, but heck, its ok. and yeah. for the last game, if im not wrong, i haf two eggs for the both of the first two throws. but, amazingly, i got more than a 100 pts for tt game. im like soO damn happy ah. kehekhekhe.
thought tts gonna be end of it, but then, somehow, me, afiq and aisyah decided to haf another few more rounds of bowling. called the bowling centers which we know off in the area to find out whether they haf any available lanes. after sending off dja and umi home, (it is getting late), we went to haf a lil bit of supper at madeen. had mutton chop and ice teh cino. (byk kau nyer nak diet, khairi!~) pastu, off to victor bowling. at marina south there. and yes, there are lanes, like anticipated, coz its very inaccessible by public transport. this time, its really like a coaching session by afiq. for a while, at the back of my mind, i tot that he is really like a coach, and not a fren, when i saw the look tt he gave me, after a very bad throw of mine. Positioning!!!! and AIM!!!! very very important. aisyah felt it too. kehkehkeh. scary, but i think its necessary. all in the name of being better in the game. and yeah. afiq gave the two of us an assignment, that is to write an assesment of each's bowling game for the day, abt the postioning, aim etc and whatever we haf learnt. aisyah already did hers in her blog. and ill do mine perhaps tmrw, coz now is getting late.
we played two games there, and then home we went, after a abit of "break" in tt dark carpark, with me having to realise i didnt haf my house keys. haha. oh well.~
tts all for now.
thanks for reading.~ :)
may Allah bless u.
The weekend of 9th and 10th June was a very physically exhausting one to say the least. Packed with things to do, that somehow left my body aching, muscles cramping on Monday morning.
On Saturday morning, met up with a BMT buddy of mine, Sekar, at Northpoint Starbucks. Over choc chip frapp and caramel frapp, we had fun as we caught up with each other's lives since the last time we met, which was like, hmm, more than a year ago? oh em gee... And had a enjoyably time having good laughs, reminscing each other's crazy antics in BMT. heh. Im a little bit jealous of him, he didnt seem to be putting on much weight. Unlike me, he seemed to haf maintained it for quite a bit.
Unfortunately, that chilling session was very brief, lasted not more than an hour, as i had to go for a floorball friendly back in my dear ol' junior college. supposed to be there at 12. but in the end, only to find out tt the first friendly that my team, the YJC Alumnni team, will be played at 130pm. this becoz there were other teams there, Northbrooks Sec and TP, and the current YJC team itself, namely the teams tt are coached by coach Ngasti.
the first match, against Northbrooks boys, my team drew 4-4 with them. and yeah. we struggled with their pace and their flair. its a wonder tt we manage to draw with them. haha. we haf basically not train with each other since god knows when. too bad, our skills werent as good as before. especially me, to be honest. and yeah, i think its not an exaggeration when i say i was one of the best defenders during my time, together with fadzly. but saturday showed me how my skills haf greatly rusted, and it showed how i need a new stick badly. heh. actually no lah. the most obvious thing tt it showed was tt i haf completely lost my level of fitness and speed, and even sadder to say, im even worse off before i enter the NS. boo hoo hoo~!
after the first match, me, melvin and chin went to the nearby coffeshop to haf our lunch. managed to do a bit of catching up too~ and i had indian bee hoon goreng, no less! urgh. macam mane nak turun berat badan nie mcm??? grr.~ next match, against the current YJC team is told to be at three,thirty. but in the end, turned out to be at 4 plus2. and yeah, this time there was no escape, we lost 2-3 to the current YJC team. oh well, it could haf been worse. still, losing or winning, tho it IS still iportant to me, is NOT the penultimate thing. thing is, i had fun playing floorball, especially with the team-mates of my batch. its like so the reliving of all times, and this time, its better, coz the school bought those wall to wall boundaries, and thus, the game picks up much much faster. no more small breaks when ball go over or sumthing. haha. and yeah, i think i hurt my heel in all the excitement, as left me slightly limping afther the game.
wave after wave of the nostalgia came flooding in. as my eyes slowly soak in the rustic structures of the school, lil bits and pieces of memories came into my mind. aah~
those crazy malay lessons in the library, those times i chilled out with hannah in her class and also the library, those times we played soccer on the "hockey pitch" (in real fact, its juz a normal grass pitch, only smaller), even in the rain, those times where we spent eating meals together during breaks.
ahh, well, memories they will remain, but im sure, if really i get to heaven, i may get to relive them.
everythin finished at abt 5pm. and yeah, didnt get to meet afiq as planned. so i told him to meet the ladies first, and ill be joining them later. so, i limped all the way home, prayin tt the cold shower would dampen away the bruises and aching tt i was undergoin then. and was hoping tt the cold water will freshen up my mind so tt i wont be all dreary when im with them.
chop2 mandi, had my dinner, (coz they were already having theirs), and went to flag a cab. was thinkin i shud haf juz taken the mrt, but i didnt coz i couldnt see myself standin all the way in the mrt in tt bad physical state...
rched bugis at abt 635pm. and had two sticks while waiting for them to arrive. and yeah, there was this hot tudung chick. haha. oh well, juz a thing for me to appreciate from afar, nothing more. :)
suddenly i saw a group of ppl all clad in brown at the traffic junction. one tall guy and three short ones. kehkehek. i was like thinkin, oh my god!~, theyre all wearing brown. including me. its like suddenly theres suddenly a brown parade in town or sumthing haha. actually we did plan haf the ladies wearing black, and then me and afiq wearing brown, but this wasnt like i wat i anticipated to feel. kehkehekhe. kinda cute actually. :P
made our way up to the shop where they got those big big neoprint machine. and then, and then, we took pictures. posed mcm tak pernah pose, even afiq, who had the stone-cold smile in school, got the hang of it. even worked up a sweat in the process, prolly cause theres no fan in the machine. kehkehe. luckily had dja and umi. coz the machine's text is in japanese! had to do two times coz the first time, we didnt choose the pics, and my face was caught in a slumber-like mode. no good no good.
after the haitus in the photo booth, rushed to sultan mosque to perform our solat maghrib. me and afiq reached the bowling center first at 755. the girls reached later. *drumroll* and then, we let the games begin!
there was an electricity in the air, as everyone strived to up their game by a notch. which i think we did. :) me and aisyah wasnt as uptite abt the game like we were before. more chilled and relaxed now. but sumhow, dja pulak yg teropposite. entah mengape. takmo stress2 k. tak manis. one tip in being good in bowling, according to afiq, is not to let oneself be caught up with the disappointment of a bad showing. instead, try to reflect on every possible tt may haf contributed to the bad throw. like postioning, grip on the ball, etc etc. yesh. i think its safe to say tt i did improve tremendously, thanks to afiq. and now, safe to say tt i can hook the ball a great deal. just hafta be more careful on the placing of the ball and the power imposed on it. apparently my arm strength is still a bit weak.
this time, there more hi-fives all around, and more smiles definitely. it was enjoyable to say the least and the company was great. :) but, good things haf to come to an end eventually. tot of playing four games, but by the third game, told tt it was to be our last. a bit disappointed, but heck, its ok. and yeah. for the last game, if im not wrong, i haf two eggs for the both of the first two throws. but, amazingly, i got more than a 100 pts for tt game. im like soO damn happy ah. kehekhekhe.
thought tts gonna be end of it, but then, somehow, me, afiq and aisyah decided to haf another few more rounds of bowling. called the bowling centers which we know off in the area to find out whether they haf any available lanes. after sending off dja and umi home, (it is getting late), we went to haf a lil bit of supper at madeen. had mutton chop and ice teh cino. (byk kau nyer nak diet, khairi!~) pastu, off to victor bowling. at marina south there. and yes, there are lanes, like anticipated, coz its very inaccessible by public transport. this time, its really like a coaching session by afiq. for a while, at the back of my mind, i tot that he is really like a coach, and not a fren, when i saw the look tt he gave me, after a very bad throw of mine. Positioning!!!! and AIM!!!! very very important. aisyah felt it too. kehkehkeh. scary, but i think its necessary. all in the name of being better in the game. and yeah. afiq gave the two of us an assignment, that is to write an assesment of each's bowling game for the day, abt the postioning, aim etc and whatever we haf learnt. aisyah already did hers in her blog. and ill do mine perhaps tmrw, coz now is getting late.
we played two games there, and then home we went, after a abit of "break" in tt dark carpark, with me having to realise i didnt haf my house keys. haha. oh well.~
tts all for now.
thanks for reading.~ :)
may Allah bless u.
a.new.chapter
110607-2315
Bismillahirahmanirahim~
Aite. here goes. lets just say im no longer interested in maintainin my other blogs, namely the soundexposed and the blog-city one. i find that it is time to start a new one, a new permanent one, one like how i always blogged in blog-city. actually, if not for blog-city making it a subscription-based blog server by year end, i would have just continued using it. lots of both sweet and bitter memories i haf stashed there since my JC days. ive abt until this year to transfer all those random scribblings to a more permanent location before it will juz be wiped out, like as though it had never really existed in the first place.
Why Purple Hustle?
Purple, becoz of the significance and meaning behind the color.
"You are very intuitive and have deep feelings and high aspirations. You are interested in the best of everything, including your friends. Lesser mortals do not interest you or enter into your scheme of things except where necessary.
Watch that you do not become arrogant – try to make more time for listening. Orchid, grape or violet can make you feel imposed upon by others’ belief systems, rules and regulations. Be sensitive to your personal and spiritual needs. Try yoga or meditation to release mind blocks." - http://library.thinkquest.org/C004179/significance.htm
Hustle, becoz of the energetic association with the word, and also coz it rhymes with purple. khekehkehek.
*actually, heard it from the title of the movie, Hustle and Flow, hehe. dang! haf yet to watch the movie. :(*
and so, Insyallah, with a new zest in life, and the new challenges tt im gonna embark myself in, this blog will contain lil snippets and bits and pieces of my own daily incidences and thoughts that occur from time to time.
peace.be.upon.to.all
and may Allah bless you.
Bismillahirahmanirahim~
Aite. here goes. lets just say im no longer interested in maintainin my other blogs, namely the soundexposed and the blog-city one. i find that it is time to start a new one, a new permanent one, one like how i always blogged in blog-city. actually, if not for blog-city making it a subscription-based blog server by year end, i would have just continued using it. lots of both sweet and bitter memories i haf stashed there since my JC days. ive abt until this year to transfer all those random scribblings to a more permanent location before it will juz be wiped out, like as though it had never really existed in the first place.
Why Purple Hustle?
Purple, becoz of the significance and meaning behind the color.
"You are very intuitive and have deep feelings and high aspirations. You are interested in the best of everything, including your friends. Lesser mortals do not interest you or enter into your scheme of things except where necessary.
Watch that you do not become arrogant – try to make more time for listening. Orchid, grape or violet can make you feel imposed upon by others’ belief systems, rules and regulations. Be sensitive to your personal and spiritual needs. Try yoga or meditation to release mind blocks." - http://library.thinkquest.org/C004179/significance.htm
Hustle, becoz of the energetic association with the word, and also coz it rhymes with purple. khekehkehek.
*actually, heard it from the title of the movie, Hustle and Flow, hehe. dang! haf yet to watch the movie. :(*
and so, Insyallah, with a new zest in life, and the new challenges tt im gonna embark myself in, this blog will contain lil snippets and bits and pieces of my own daily incidences and thoughts that occur from time to time.
peace.be.upon.to.all
and may Allah bless you.
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