yesterday, was a lil out of sorts.
woke up late for. ended up skipping a lecture.
and trying my best to stay awake during the sociolingustic lecture and tutorial.
my first time luggin ard tt lappie in sch. torturous to the max.
met up with dja at port, and after maghrib, had dinner at mcD.
planned to catch the fireworks, and we did. managed to get a decent spot.
sat and chilled by the merlion for a while, before making our way home. dun mind the long loading time for the vid. press pause first, and wait for it to load fully, to enjoy it ;)
my.sign
VIRGO MAN (AUG23 - SEP22)
Time is precious for Virgo man and if you make him wait, he will consider that as an insult. He hates to hear criticisms and hates to be criticized. If
he is criticizing other people, then he must be influenced by another Zodiac.
He is and he likes to be a perfectionist. He always think he is doing the right and appropriate thing, and often he thinks he makes no mistake. He is a bright guy and could accept comments if he thinks they can improve himself. He is the type who is well adjusted to make changes.
He will spend money carefully and spend it on worthwhile items. He will only be extravagant for his personal pleasure only.
He is quite romantic, a type of guy who can drive 100 miles just to tell you how much he misses you. If he does not care about you, he will not even spend a dime to call you locally. Long distant special low rate calls are also out of the question.
He hates rough and crude people. His woman has to be clean and dress well. He
inspects anything in detail besides being a perfectionist, so you could be lying in your bikini with a perfect figure and he can suddenly comments you about your big feet. If you gain 2 pounds, he may comment that you are getting too fat. Before going out with this kind of guy,
look at yourself head to toe in the mirror and ask yourself if you are really and entirely ready.
Unless he dates a model, he will have no comments.
He is neat and tidy, so his life is always in a schedule, a fixed time for lunch, the same time to go home. He is well-knowledgeable about food and conscious about nutrition, so you won't see this guy eating a junk food, or strange and exotic food for sure.
You will see him in social events or party if only necessary. He is gifted with acting, so if he says he can not go out with you because he is sick, then you will believe him. He is a hard man to please when it comes to what to eat, how to work, what kind of a woman to date. He is always neat and tidy all the time. Even if while he is in the army, he will be the cleanest soldier in the camp. He likes to speak properly with no slang. He hates laziness and lazy people. He always act like a boring mature adult, but getting to know him, you will know he has his own charm.
He always see things clearly, so he is not the type to be blinded by love. He is a kind and cool guy, but if constantly irritated with rudeness, ignorance, or stupidity then he will show you that he is annoyed. You may see a guy in this Zodiac dressed up in an old shirt and old Jean, but if you look carefully, you will see that his hair is neat and unconsciouslyhe will touch his hair a lot. His desk is always neat and if he sees small scrap paper on the floor, he will pick it up or put it in the basket.
People may think he is selfish, because when he says "No", he really means it. Any favor asked, he will help but always in his own limit. The more he see faults in others, the less he wants
people to see his. If you want him to change his faults, try to tell him gently or he could take
it as an insult.
He wants love that comes with quality, so he only has a few loves in his life. Women's tricks will not work with him. If he breaks up with a woman, he will also try to avoid all her
friends and her environments too. He is very picky and every time after breaking up, he will be doubly careful the next time.
He can sweep women with his charm, but he likes to keep his relationship partner like a friend. He likes a sincere, confident woman, neat and clean, perfect and tidy. A real two "P"s, picky
and perfectionist Zodiac.
i got this courtesy from a certain finnegan bell.
in bold are what i think is true abt me.
:)
Time is precious for Virgo man and if you make him wait, he will consider that as an insult. He hates to hear criticisms and hates to be criticized. If
he is criticizing other people, then he must be influenced by another Zodiac.
He is and he likes to be a perfectionist. He always think he is doing the right and appropriate thing, and often he thinks he makes no mistake. He is a bright guy and could accept comments if he thinks they can improve himself. He is the type who is well adjusted to make changes.
He will spend money carefully and spend it on worthwhile items. He will only be extravagant for his personal pleasure only.
He is quite romantic, a type of guy who can drive 100 miles just to tell you how much he misses you. If he does not care about you, he will not even spend a dime to call you locally. Long distant special low rate calls are also out of the question.
He hates rough and crude people. His woman has to be clean and dress well. He
inspects anything in detail besides being a perfectionist, so you could be lying in your bikini with a perfect figure and he can suddenly comments you about your big feet. If you gain 2 pounds, he may comment that you are getting too fat. Before going out with this kind of guy,
look at yourself head to toe in the mirror and ask yourself if you are really and entirely ready.
Unless he dates a model, he will have no comments.
He is neat and tidy, so his life is always in a schedule, a fixed time for lunch, the same time to go home. He is well-knowledgeable about food and conscious about nutrition, so you won't see this guy eating a junk food, or strange and exotic food for sure.
You will see him in social events or party if only necessary. He is gifted with acting, so if he says he can not go out with you because he is sick, then you will believe him. He is a hard man to please when it comes to what to eat, how to work, what kind of a woman to date. He is always neat and tidy all the time. Even if while he is in the army, he will be the cleanest soldier in the camp. He likes to speak properly with no slang. He hates laziness and lazy people. He always act like a boring mature adult, but getting to know him, you will know he has his own charm.
He always see things clearly, so he is not the type to be blinded by love. He is a kind and cool guy, but if constantly irritated with rudeness, ignorance, or stupidity then he will show you that he is annoyed. You may see a guy in this Zodiac dressed up in an old shirt and old Jean, but if you look carefully, you will see that his hair is neat and unconsciouslyhe will touch his hair a lot. His desk is always neat and if he sees small scrap paper on the floor, he will pick it up or put it in the basket.
People may think he is selfish, because when he says "No", he really means it. Any favor asked, he will help but always in his own limit. The more he see faults in others, the less he wants
people to see his. If you want him to change his faults, try to tell him gently or he could take
it as an insult.
He wants love that comes with quality, so he only has a few loves in his life. Women's tricks will not work with him. If he breaks up with a woman, he will also try to avoid all her
friends and her environments too. He is very picky and every time after breaking up, he will be doubly careful the next time.
He can sweep women with his charm, but he likes to keep his relationship partner like a friend. He likes a sincere, confident woman, neat and clean, perfect and tidy. A real two "P"s, picky
and perfectionist Zodiac.
i got this courtesy from a certain finnegan bell.
in bold are what i think is true abt me.
:)
russian.roulette.of.love
140807/0245
truth is, i treasure our friendship more than how much i'm willing to risk it all by revealing how i feel about u.
past experience taught me that if i were to go on in this, it can swing either way. and one way is that i may lose both the friendship and you yourself, which i'm not prepared to go through at all.
the differences between the stages of our own lives are there for all the whole world to see.
if only time and the current circumstances are on my side...
if only im born earlier...
im wondering what made me think that there is an actual chance that thing i was pursuing might actually go my way.
yes. i wont play this russian roulette of love this time round.
there's so much to lose, even though, my optimistic head tells me, there can be so much to gain.
i dont see myself ever brave enuf to reveal my deepest sentiments towards u. only unless, ive reached a stage where im adequate enough to care for you as partner. and only Allah knows by then, if u'd already end up with someone else.
as of now, im willing to deny the longing whispers of my heart for u.
and im telling myself, yes, perhaps this is the best that i can wish for the both of us.
as friends, in the truest sense of the word. but id still say this though, whoever ends up with you is one hella lucky dude. :)
yes. im no longer chasing.
whatever still, there is a reason for everything that happens. for all the good and bad things that come to us, it comes from Him. and He knows whats best for us.
im ready to take the backseat for now and stand from afar, treasuring every word thats going to be exchanged and every second thats going to be spent in the company of each other.
for i am contented to be just a friend.
:)
my.heart.bleeds
truth is, i treasure our friendship more than how much i'm willing to risk it all by revealing how i feel about u.
past experience taught me that if i were to go on in this, it can swing either way. and one way is that i may lose both the friendship and you yourself, which i'm not prepared to go through at all.
the differences between the stages of our own lives are there for all the whole world to see.
if only time and the current circumstances are on my side...
if only im born earlier...
im wondering what made me think that there is an actual chance that thing i was pursuing might actually go my way.
yes. i wont play this russian roulette of love this time round.
there's so much to lose, even though, my optimistic head tells me, there can be so much to gain.
i dont see myself ever brave enuf to reveal my deepest sentiments towards u. only unless, ive reached a stage where im adequate enough to care for you as partner. and only Allah knows by then, if u'd already end up with someone else.
as of now, im willing to deny the longing whispers of my heart for u.
and im telling myself, yes, perhaps this is the best that i can wish for the both of us.
as friends, in the truest sense of the word. but id still say this though, whoever ends up with you is one hella lucky dude. :)
yes. im no longer chasing.
whatever still, there is a reason for everything that happens. for all the good and bad things that come to us, it comes from Him. and He knows whats best for us.
im ready to take the backseat for now and stand from afar, treasuring every word thats going to be exchanged and every second thats going to be spent in the company of each other.
for i am contented to be just a friend.
:)
my.heart.bleeds
mango.cheesecake
on wed, the eve of national day, i met up with Anissa for a movie, rush hour 3, at GV yishun.
this time, a planned meeting, unlike tt fateful first "meeting" on 812 on our way home.
wasnt much of a movie, pretty bland actually, in comparison to the previous two movies.
but alhamdullilah, the company i had did more than just make up for it. even though, short as it may seemed, well to me at least. ;)
on thurs
my family had a tahlil session at plc. lotsa ppl came. and really lotsa. was pretty drained out by the end of it.
mane ke tidak, had to be up by 5am setting up tt giant clay stove so my mom can cook the food needed. nasi ambeng.
:)
tabby was in the area, so i passed some to her. she said sedap. i agree. hehe
on friday after class, me and a new fren of mine, Jason, whom i got to know during the welcoming ceremony for HSS students last week, had a bowling session at SAFRA yishun.
had a pretty decent session. played 3 games in all.
Jason was a 30 pointer. and tt was only his second time bowling. nevertheless, i dragged him still. but only after we ate lunch at Varinice. tt food court which used to be S11 beside the bus interchange.
first game sucked big time for me, coz i used a 12pound ball. no 10 pound tt can fit my fingers. during the first game, i taught Jason a few things tt i noe abt bowling, from positioning, to the throwing of the ball, to basically everythin i noe, i think.
by the 2nd game, he got the rough hang of it. scoring more than 30. hehe. i think it was 70 or 80 if im not wrong.
my first game i ended with only a 90. urgh. all spinners.
2nd game for me, improved by a mile, even tho i used the same ball. got 116. and by the end of the 2nd game only did the groove got over me, and we decided to play a third game.
and then, i found a ten pound ball tt has my perfect fit. ape lagi, lantak ah. skipped my spinning routine, and played the hook. and boy, were they beauties. :)
finished the game at 132 pts. :)
during the evening, with my father, met up mama, muslihah, mimah, cik pete, aimi, firah, and cik mai at mustafa. hisyam and family joined us a bit later. had bit of fun with the gang. :)
and even had supper at KTM, where my cousins had a whole of ballin gd time being cam'whores and gigolos, me included. haha. rched hm at abt 2am.
saturday.
boring2 sat. whole day at home.
figured out tt STARS planner. and i finally added a subject to complete the minimum number of subjects for my semester. now, its between "what is history", and "lamguage in society"
only lookin forward to watch my magpies play. and played they did. imagine, 3 goals within 30 mins. amazing rite. yeah. sam allardyce did wonders for the team, and for the first time since a long period ever, i felt confident abt newcastle's defence. :)
and then, came a much wonderful surprised.
Anissa, who was otw way back home from JB with her mom, got for me mango cheesecake and pretzel.
went down to her void deck to meet her. and even had a decent 15min chat.
imma eat it in the mornin with my sisters. sebab rase mcm bersalah gitu kalo makan bende tu sorang2. and yes, as fate would haf it, mango is my fave fruit. :):):)
that all truly made my saturday. thank you.
hmm. wonder hows my sunday gonna be?
neverhtheless, i am happy. :)
well, whoever who reads this, tk cr, and may Allah bless u...
this time, a planned meeting, unlike tt fateful first "meeting" on 812 on our way home.
wasnt much of a movie, pretty bland actually, in comparison to the previous two movies.
but alhamdullilah, the company i had did more than just make up for it. even though, short as it may seemed, well to me at least. ;)
on thurs
my family had a tahlil session at plc. lotsa ppl came. and really lotsa. was pretty drained out by the end of it.
mane ke tidak, had to be up by 5am setting up tt giant clay stove so my mom can cook the food needed. nasi ambeng.
:)
tabby was in the area, so i passed some to her. she said sedap. i agree. hehe
on friday after class, me and a new fren of mine, Jason, whom i got to know during the welcoming ceremony for HSS students last week, had a bowling session at SAFRA yishun.
had a pretty decent session. played 3 games in all.
Jason was a 30 pointer. and tt was only his second time bowling. nevertheless, i dragged him still. but only after we ate lunch at Varinice. tt food court which used to be S11 beside the bus interchange.
first game sucked big time for me, coz i used a 12pound ball. no 10 pound tt can fit my fingers. during the first game, i taught Jason a few things tt i noe abt bowling, from positioning, to the throwing of the ball, to basically everythin i noe, i think.
by the 2nd game, he got the rough hang of it. scoring more than 30. hehe. i think it was 70 or 80 if im not wrong.
my first game i ended with only a 90. urgh. all spinners.
2nd game for me, improved by a mile, even tho i used the same ball. got 116. and by the end of the 2nd game only did the groove got over me, and we decided to play a third game.
and then, i found a ten pound ball tt has my perfect fit. ape lagi, lantak ah. skipped my spinning routine, and played the hook. and boy, were they beauties. :)
finished the game at 132 pts. :)
during the evening, with my father, met up mama, muslihah, mimah, cik pete, aimi, firah, and cik mai at mustafa. hisyam and family joined us a bit later. had bit of fun with the gang. :)
and even had supper at KTM, where my cousins had a whole of ballin gd time being cam'whores and gigolos, me included. haha. rched hm at abt 2am.
saturday.
boring2 sat. whole day at home.
figured out tt STARS planner. and i finally added a subject to complete the minimum number of subjects for my semester. now, its between "what is history", and "lamguage in society"
only lookin forward to watch my magpies play. and played they did. imagine, 3 goals within 30 mins. amazing rite. yeah. sam allardyce did wonders for the team, and for the first time since a long period ever, i felt confident abt newcastle's defence. :)
and then, came a much wonderful surprised.
Anissa, who was otw way back home from JB with her mom, got for me mango cheesecake and pretzel.
went down to her void deck to meet her. and even had a decent 15min chat.
imma eat it in the mornin with my sisters. sebab rase mcm bersalah gitu kalo makan bende tu sorang2. and yes, as fate would haf it, mango is my fave fruit. :):):)
that all truly made my saturday. thank you.
hmm. wonder hows my sunday gonna be?
neverhtheless, i am happy. :)
well, whoever who reads this, tk cr, and may Allah bless u...
prayer.for.a.partner
"...
Bismillahir Rahmanir Raheem
In Name of Allah the Most Gracious, the Most Merciful
Ya Allah...
Seandainya telah Engkau catatkan...
Dia milikku tercipta buatku...
Satukanlah hatinya dengan hatiku...
Titipkanlah kebahagiaan antara kami...
Agar kemesraan itu abadi...
Ya Allah ...
Ya Tuhanku yang Maha Mengasihi...
Seiringkanlah kami melayari hidup ini...
Ke tepian yang sejahtera dan abadi...
Maka jodohkanlah kami...
Tetapi ya Allah...
Seandainya telah Engkau takdirkan
Dia bukan milikku...
Bawalah dia jauh dari pandanganku...
Luputkanlah dia dari ingatanku...
Dan peliharalah aku dari kekecewaan...
Ya Allah ya Tuhanku yang Maha Mengerti...
Berikanlah aku kekuatan...
Menolak bayangannya jauh ke dada langit...
Hilang bersama senja yang merah...
Agarku sentiasa tenang...
Walaupun tanpa bersama dengannya...
Ya Allah yang tercinta...
Pasrahkanlah aku dengan takdirMu...
Sesungguhnya apa yang telah Engkau takdirkan...
Adalah yang terbaik untuk ku...
Sesungguhnya Engkau Maha Mengetahui...
Segala yang terbaik buat hamba-Mu ini...
Ya Allah...
Cukuplah Engkau saja yang menjadi pemeliharaku...
Di dunia dan di akhirat...
Dengarlah rintihan dari hamba-Mu yang dhaif ini...
Janganlah Engkau biarkan aku sendirian...
Di dunia ini maupun di akhirat...
Menjuruskan aku ke arah kemaksiatan dan kemungkaran...
Maka kurniakanlah aku seorang pasangan yang beriman...
Agar aku dan dia sama-sama dapat membina kesejahteraan hidup...
Ke jalan yang Engkau redhai...
Dan kurniakanlah padaku keturunan yang soleh dan solehah...
Ya Allah...
Berilah kami kebahagiaan di dunia dan kebahagiaan di akhirat...
Dan peliharalah kami dari azab api neraka...
Amin...
..."-sumwhere
Bismillahir Rahmanir Raheem
In Name of Allah the Most Gracious, the Most Merciful
Ya Allah...
Seandainya telah Engkau catatkan...
Dia milikku tercipta buatku...
Satukanlah hatinya dengan hatiku...
Titipkanlah kebahagiaan antara kami...
Agar kemesraan itu abadi...
Ya Allah ...
Ya Tuhanku yang Maha Mengasihi...
Seiringkanlah kami melayari hidup ini...
Ke tepian yang sejahtera dan abadi...
Maka jodohkanlah kami...
Tetapi ya Allah...
Seandainya telah Engkau takdirkan
Dia bukan milikku...
Bawalah dia jauh dari pandanganku...
Luputkanlah dia dari ingatanku...
Dan peliharalah aku dari kekecewaan...
Ya Allah ya Tuhanku yang Maha Mengerti...
Berikanlah aku kekuatan...
Menolak bayangannya jauh ke dada langit...
Hilang bersama senja yang merah...
Agarku sentiasa tenang...
Walaupun tanpa bersama dengannya...
Ya Allah yang tercinta...
Pasrahkanlah aku dengan takdirMu...
Sesungguhnya apa yang telah Engkau takdirkan...
Adalah yang terbaik untuk ku...
Sesungguhnya Engkau Maha Mengetahui...
Segala yang terbaik buat hamba-Mu ini...
Ya Allah...
Cukuplah Engkau saja yang menjadi pemeliharaku...
Di dunia dan di akhirat...
Dengarlah rintihan dari hamba-Mu yang dhaif ini...
Janganlah Engkau biarkan aku sendirian...
Di dunia ini maupun di akhirat...
Menjuruskan aku ke arah kemaksiatan dan kemungkaran...
Maka kurniakanlah aku seorang pasangan yang beriman...
Agar aku dan dia sama-sama dapat membina kesejahteraan hidup...
Ke jalan yang Engkau redhai...
Dan kurniakanlah padaku keturunan yang soleh dan solehah...
Ya Allah...
Berilah kami kebahagiaan di dunia dan kebahagiaan di akhirat...
Dan peliharalah kami dari azab api neraka...
Amin...
..."-sumwhere
u.hate.labels?
purple hustle cakap on 08.08.07:
woah. im almost blown. :)
a fine line between "labels" and "descriptions".
labels = subjective.
descriptions = objective.
when a person's "credibilty"/level of societal status is "questionable", tt person may turn highly defensive, only if a person's level of humilty is much to be desired.
its only natural for humans, comparing/thinking/discriminating creatures tt we are, to blame/scrutinise others' own lil flaws and discernaties(is there such a word, haha
purple hustle cakap on 08.08.07:
but at same time, some fail to see that, when it comes putting the other party in a worse light, when its not them, its us, and vice versa.
but heck.
everyone is the same in His Eyes.
well, almost the same.
for, its the deeds that we do that sets us apart from each other.
being antagonistic is only natural dude, but try to lessen the pressure of ourselves, and walk on knowing tt its how He views us that really matters.
:)
peace.
woah. im almost blown. :)
a fine line between "labels" and "descriptions".
labels = subjective.
descriptions = objective.
when a person's "credibilty"/level of societal status is "questionable", tt person may turn highly defensive, only if a person's level of humilty is much to be desired.
its only natural for humans, comparing/thinking/discriminating creatures tt we are, to blame/scrutinise others' own lil flaws and discernaties(is there such a word, haha
purple hustle cakap on 08.08.07:
but at same time, some fail to see that, when it comes putting the other party in a worse light, when its not them, its us, and vice versa.
but heck.
everyone is the same in His Eyes.
well, almost the same.
for, its the deeds that we do that sets us apart from each other.
being antagonistic is only natural dude, but try to lessen the pressure of ourselves, and walk on knowing tt its how He views us that really matters.
:)
peace.
the.spark
"...
Anyone who is observant, who discovers the person they have always dreamed of, knows that sexual energy comes into play before sex even takes place. The greatest pleasure isn't sex, but the passion with which it is practised. When the passion is intense, the sex joins in to complete the dance, but it is never the principal aim..
Anyone who is in love is making love the whole time, even when they are not. When two bodies meet, it is just the cup overflowing. They can stay together for hours, even days.
..."-somewhere
:)
as many out there would agree w me, its never all abt sex when it comes to the basis of the underlying interaction between the opposite sex.
for me, its also abt how much the other party is able to complement u in ways tt u can never fathom yrself of having to achieve.
its abt sharing the same sets of values and attitudes, yet, having different senses of methods of needs and wants, which may drive the two of u to enroucarge each other to greater heights.
filling the void, where he/she becomes yr best friend and your ultimate confidante, someone u can talk to abt everythin, without ever need to restraint any hues of truth.
the idea of opposites attract. initally, well it does, but at the end of the day, u want things to go in sync in regards of one another. thats where ull see how far can the two ppl can accomodate each other. being too opposite with the other, as ive found out, may bring u the intrigue and mystery to kick things off, then after tt what? those sparks, if not handled with patience and utmost finesse, may juz be turn to the biggest inferno to burn thyselves.
at the end of the day, its abt how the presence of the other bring an undescribable sense of bliss, which convinces u enuf to work hard to make it all work, n to set aside irritating differences, till the end of yr days.
sex is only just a by-line product of it all.
;)
Anyone who is observant, who discovers the person they have always dreamed of, knows that sexual energy comes into play before sex even takes place. The greatest pleasure isn't sex, but the passion with which it is practised. When the passion is intense, the sex joins in to complete the dance, but it is never the principal aim..
Anyone who is in love is making love the whole time, even when they are not. When two bodies meet, it is just the cup overflowing. They can stay together for hours, even days.
..."-somewhere
:)
as many out there would agree w me, its never all abt sex when it comes to the basis of the underlying interaction between the opposite sex.
for me, its also abt how much the other party is able to complement u in ways tt u can never fathom yrself of having to achieve.
its abt sharing the same sets of values and attitudes, yet, having different senses of methods of needs and wants, which may drive the two of u to enroucarge each other to greater heights.
filling the void, where he/she becomes yr best friend and your ultimate confidante, someone u can talk to abt everythin, without ever need to restraint any hues of truth.
the idea of opposites attract. initally, well it does, but at the end of the day, u want things to go in sync in regards of one another. thats where ull see how far can the two ppl can accomodate each other. being too opposite with the other, as ive found out, may bring u the intrigue and mystery to kick things off, then after tt what? those sparks, if not handled with patience and utmost finesse, may juz be turn to the biggest inferno to burn thyselves.
at the end of the day, its abt how the presence of the other bring an undescribable sense of bliss, which convinces u enuf to work hard to make it all work, n to set aside irritating differences, till the end of yr days.
sex is only just a by-line product of it all.
;)
not.a.flirt
used to cast the net far and wide in between, going out with every one of them tt fell for me.
at the same period of time.
be it go on dates, or juz phonecalls, or juz giving the attention to them a casanova or a don juan would.
just for the thrill of it, also perhaps, to rub away my insecurities then?
at one pt of time, i was so mixed up with one of them, i actually called one with a name tt belongs to another.
wont say how many i juggled at most, lest, ppl might think im boasting.
yes. i was "active" in tt.
stopped sometime back, coz, i was tired of the whole thing. being seen, for evaluation and being evaluated, which i tot was juz so fake, and empty in essence. for me at least. coz, not even one of them really swept me off my feet during this time.
and until yesterday, found nothing wrong with what i did.
until a conversation yest nite woke me up. and made me realise tt, whatever i did, is just plain stooping low.
yes. its abt keeping options open.
at same time, does it ever prick yr conscience knowing tt u let someone fall for u, but u haf no intention of returnin back the love.
u can be the antagonist, at same time, u can be the antagonised. its all a game. a gamble to say the least. only now, i realise a brother's advice, of playin the game, one at a time. at least, the damage done would be minimal.
now im chasing juz one. and ill stick to that one. someone who i think deserves my attention. one who had truly swept me off my feet. not in a moment, but over a period of time. tts how careful i am now.
and im telling myself, to be prepared, lest in case, she wants to keep HER options open.
coz if i can do it to ppl, ppl can do it to me rite?
so, ill juz suck it up like a man, and deal with it if it really happens.
:)
at the same period of time.
be it go on dates, or juz phonecalls, or juz giving the attention to them a casanova or a don juan would.
just for the thrill of it, also perhaps, to rub away my insecurities then?
at one pt of time, i was so mixed up with one of them, i actually called one with a name tt belongs to another.
wont say how many i juggled at most, lest, ppl might think im boasting.
yes. i was "active" in tt.
stopped sometime back, coz, i was tired of the whole thing. being seen, for evaluation and being evaluated, which i tot was juz so fake, and empty in essence. for me at least. coz, not even one of them really swept me off my feet during this time.
and until yesterday, found nothing wrong with what i did.
until a conversation yest nite woke me up. and made me realise tt, whatever i did, is just plain stooping low.
yes. its abt keeping options open.
at same time, does it ever prick yr conscience knowing tt u let someone fall for u, but u haf no intention of returnin back the love.
u can be the antagonist, at same time, u can be the antagonised. its all a game. a gamble to say the least. only now, i realise a brother's advice, of playin the game, one at a time. at least, the damage done would be minimal.
now im chasing juz one. and ill stick to that one. someone who i think deserves my attention. one who had truly swept me off my feet. not in a moment, but over a period of time. tts how careful i am now.
and im telling myself, to be prepared, lest in case, she wants to keep HER options open.
coz if i can do it to ppl, ppl can do it to me rite?
so, ill juz suck it up like a man, and deal with it if it really happens.
:)
quoted
"...
Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure.
It is our light, not our darkness, that most frightens us.
We ask ourselves, who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous,
talented and fabulous?
Actually, who are you not to be?
You are a child of God.
Your playing small doesn't serve the world.
There's nothing enlightened about shrinking so that
other people won't feel insecure around you.
We are born to make manifest the glory of God
that is within us.
It is not just in some of us, it's in everyone.
As we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give
other people permission to do the same.
And as we are liberated from our own fears,
our presence automatically liberates others.
..."-Marianne Wiiliamson
Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure.
It is our light, not our darkness, that most frightens us.
We ask ourselves, who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous,
talented and fabulous?
Actually, who are you not to be?
You are a child of God.
Your playing small doesn't serve the world.
There's nothing enlightened about shrinking so that
other people won't feel insecure around you.
We are born to make manifest the glory of God
that is within us.
It is not just in some of us, it's in everyone.
As we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give
other people permission to do the same.
And as we are liberated from our own fears,
our presence automatically liberates others.
..."-Marianne Wiiliamson
ic.my.jersey
busy busy khairi on wednesday 010807. late morning went back to sinspec to collect my cheque.
cashed it out at HSBC dhoby ghaut. deposited it at DBS PS. bus 7 to lavender. overshort my stop by one. juz one stop but the walk back was a nightmare. 400m juz to track back to the ICA building. applied to replace my loss ic. had to endure a long wait, but tt was ok, coz i anticipated worse. when it was my turn, was told to get another photo taken coz the one i had already taken beforehand at northpoint had a streak of shadow behind me. and i was like !@#$%. but it was ok. smiled all the way thru. saw the snaking queue which i estimated to be abt 20m in length at the photo booth at the IC floor. decided to go up to the student visa level. guez whot. only 3 ppl in front of me. so, it was a breeze. had a jolly good time laughin by myself, loookin at gelagat2 org yg kene amik gambar. and all coz of tt, my picture is so totally darlie-like, with teeth and all. kehekhekhe. went back to same counter, and the lady asked me,"wah! so happy ah", upon looking at the pic. was a bit bitter initally, coz i totally didnt gell up my hair, was in sleepy mode, tapi takpelah, the smile is sweet enuf. so, jadi la. haha. after tt, went to harbourfront to get tt bag i was eyeing for.. even till now, sakit hati jugak sey, to find out tt the bag is sold out. no more in singapore. brand animal, and coz its a UK brand, shipment stocks were like way limited. tak tau pulak aku skrg org dah suka bag mcm gitu. haiz. after tt initial disappointment, went to new york pizza to get my lunch, while waiting for afiq. the meal was quite cheap. and i was surprise to see the pizza i got was quite large. tapi ok2 je lah. nothin special. edible enuf to eat. pastu, me and afiq, went on a windowshoppin hunt at harbourfront. me looking for a bag, and shoes, while afiq lookin for a swatch. in the end, both did not get what we wanted initially. and then, afiq decided to step into the adidas store at vivo, juz wanna look for shirts. then, i decided to try my luck. i asked one of the stores personnel whether they haf any newcastle jerseys in stock. the guy couldnt understand what i was saying. he replied,"what? newcastle? huh?" and im like "eh, nie dah lain macam aje". then i looked at his nametag. it sported the suncruise logo. hahaha. im like, oh my god, im so sorry, then i trus chow away from his sight. kehkehe. kekek kan? then, i asked the real store personnel, this quirky chinese short guy, he said it juz came in on the same day. i couldnt believe my luck. i was left gushing and smiling like mad, then i saw another customer wearing a previous newcastle jersey. i nodded at him and and smiled. i asked for a size bigger than normal, coz i wanna feel comfortable, and he gave me. tts the last piece too!~ he was juz abt to put up tt shirt for display. so i tried it on, and i never felt so so happy. after tryin it on, after seeing its a nice fit, i bought it~! tak kisah pasal price. asalkan dpt jugak! been wantin it since jan! afiq, seeing tt i got tt newcastle jersey, member pun rase bersemangat and he asked me whether he shud get a liverpool jersey, and thus, wanna share the joy, i egged him on. another store assistant, a cool and chill malay guy whos also a liverpool fan talked with us. and we talked abt football jerseys. mcm gerek gitu. i was already in cloud nine, and he was telling and showing afiq liverpool jerseys tt the store haf. afiq was already in a daze. and yes. he got a trainin jersey. a black one which the malay guy took out from store, which wasnt on display. and we saw this offer, 19bux for this nifty adidas bag for an 80bux purchase. the original price was 56bux. i didnt buy it, coz i dun like it. afiq saw it, after much deliberation, he likes it. and coz he cant use his recept, blum cecah 80, he used mine. and thus, he bought it. we walked out really happy happy men. and yes. this sat, we plannin to wear them for the grp outing. after the vivo trip, met up wit sis aisyah and kak imah for rounds and rounds of bowling session, but not before we solat at darul darusalam. bowled at west coast. the lanes, not suitable for getting tt perfect hook. afiq to the pt of bingitness tryna perfect tt hook on that lane. sis aisyah seems to be getting her groove on, with many2 strikes hitting the screens. while me? aah. juz say i used tt opportunity to play a spinning straight ball. for me now, in the matter of spinning, its abt getting the aiming right. somehow, in the middle of the bowling session, found out tt i was a pretty abit lethargic and fatigued. somehow, my body wasnt up for it, thus explainin my coupla of bad throws. but i did get a coupla strikes and good spares tho. hehe. and the red-bull and h20 did minimal help. now, amongst the four of us, can be quite safe to say tt im the worse of the lot. so much for me learnin hooking and spinning, instead of juz playing a simple pushin straight ball like what sis aisyah and dja always do. tapi takpe, i see it as a challenge. and yes. now, my emotive ability to stay calm, even after bad throws is much better than last time, where i would get down pretty easily. senyum mau kene tetap maintain and anyways, bowling is all abt having fun and spending time wit yr frens. scores dun matter that much anyways. ;) after the bowling session, which im guessin we played four games, we went to haf dinner/supper at west coast food center. taxi ride home. and in bed by abt 0110 hrs. had a alil chat with sis aisyah, which was intrupted by a call from cik mai, but which wasnt an intrusion at all. had a lil catch up chat w her, before passing the phone to yul, and then, to dreamland. lemme present u, the pics of the jerseys bought.
Newcastle United home jersey
Liverpool training jersey
beauties, arent they? ;)
cashed it out at HSBC dhoby ghaut. deposited it at DBS PS. bus 7 to lavender. overshort my stop by one. juz one stop but the walk back was a nightmare. 400m juz to track back to the ICA building. applied to replace my loss ic. had to endure a long wait, but tt was ok, coz i anticipated worse. when it was my turn, was told to get another photo taken coz the one i had already taken beforehand at northpoint had a streak of shadow behind me. and i was like !@#$%. but it was ok. smiled all the way thru. saw the snaking queue which i estimated to be abt 20m in length at the photo booth at the IC floor. decided to go up to the student visa level. guez whot. only 3 ppl in front of me. so, it was a breeze. had a jolly good time laughin by myself, loookin at gelagat2 org yg kene amik gambar. and all coz of tt, my picture is so totally darlie-like, with teeth and all. kehekhekhe. went back to same counter, and the lady asked me,"wah! so happy ah", upon looking at the pic. was a bit bitter initally, coz i totally didnt gell up my hair, was in sleepy mode, tapi takpelah, the smile is sweet enuf. so, jadi la. haha. after tt, went to harbourfront to get tt bag i was eyeing for.. even till now, sakit hati jugak sey, to find out tt the bag is sold out. no more in singapore. brand animal, and coz its a UK brand, shipment stocks were like way limited. tak tau pulak aku skrg org dah suka bag mcm gitu. haiz. after tt initial disappointment, went to new york pizza to get my lunch, while waiting for afiq. the meal was quite cheap. and i was surprise to see the pizza i got was quite large. tapi ok2 je lah. nothin special. edible enuf to eat. pastu, me and afiq, went on a windowshoppin hunt at harbourfront. me looking for a bag, and shoes, while afiq lookin for a swatch. in the end, both did not get what we wanted initially. and then, afiq decided to step into the adidas store at vivo, juz wanna look for shirts. then, i decided to try my luck. i asked one of the stores personnel whether they haf any newcastle jerseys in stock. the guy couldnt understand what i was saying. he replied,"what? newcastle? huh?" and im like "eh, nie dah lain macam aje". then i looked at his nametag. it sported the suncruise logo. hahaha. im like, oh my god, im so sorry, then i trus chow away from his sight. kehkehe. kekek kan? then, i asked the real store personnel, this quirky chinese short guy, he said it juz came in on the same day. i couldnt believe my luck. i was left gushing and smiling like mad, then i saw another customer wearing a previous newcastle jersey. i nodded at him and and smiled. i asked for a size bigger than normal, coz i wanna feel comfortable, and he gave me. tts the last piece too!~ he was juz abt to put up tt shirt for display. so i tried it on, and i never felt so so happy. after tryin it on, after seeing its a nice fit, i bought it~! tak kisah pasal price. asalkan dpt jugak! been wantin it since jan! afiq, seeing tt i got tt newcastle jersey, member pun rase bersemangat and he asked me whether he shud get a liverpool jersey, and thus, wanna share the joy, i egged him on. another store assistant, a cool and chill malay guy whos also a liverpool fan talked with us. and we talked abt football jerseys. mcm gerek gitu. i was already in cloud nine, and he was telling and showing afiq liverpool jerseys tt the store haf. afiq was already in a daze. and yes. he got a trainin jersey. a black one which the malay guy took out from store, which wasnt on display. and we saw this offer, 19bux for this nifty adidas bag for an 80bux purchase. the original price was 56bux. i didnt buy it, coz i dun like it. afiq saw it, after much deliberation, he likes it. and coz he cant use his recept, blum cecah 80, he used mine. and thus, he bought it. we walked out really happy happy men. and yes. this sat, we plannin to wear them for the grp outing. after the vivo trip, met up wit sis aisyah and kak imah for rounds and rounds of bowling session, but not before we solat at darul darusalam. bowled at west coast. the lanes, not suitable for getting tt perfect hook. afiq to the pt of bingitness tryna perfect tt hook on that lane. sis aisyah seems to be getting her groove on, with many2 strikes hitting the screens. while me? aah. juz say i used tt opportunity to play a spinning straight ball. for me now, in the matter of spinning, its abt getting the aiming right. somehow, in the middle of the bowling session, found out tt i was a pretty abit lethargic and fatigued. somehow, my body wasnt up for it, thus explainin my coupla of bad throws. but i did get a coupla strikes and good spares tho. hehe. and the red-bull and h20 did minimal help. now, amongst the four of us, can be quite safe to say tt im the worse of the lot. so much for me learnin hooking and spinning, instead of juz playing a simple pushin straight ball like what sis aisyah and dja always do. tapi takpe, i see it as a challenge. and yes. now, my emotive ability to stay calm, even after bad throws is much better than last time, where i would get down pretty easily. senyum mau kene tetap maintain and anyways, bowling is all abt having fun and spending time wit yr frens. scores dun matter that much anyways. ;) after the bowling session, which im guessin we played four games, we went to haf dinner/supper at west coast food center. taxi ride home. and in bed by abt 0110 hrs. had a alil chat with sis aisyah, which was intrupted by a call from cik mai, but which wasnt an intrusion at all. had a lil catch up chat w her, before passing the phone to yul, and then, to dreamland. lemme present u, the pics of the jerseys bought.
Newcastle United home jerseyLiverpool training jerseybeauties, arent they? ;)
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